She betrayed me

[madameredsays]

Hello! It's been a long time since I last updated ne?
I always complain when I post here.
Today is not an exception.

Bean-chan. Again.
I wonder why I'm being betrayed like this.
It seems that she's not hating me that much anymore.
That's why.
That's why I decided to try and talk to her again.
I went to her blog.
And guess what I read?

She's badmouthing my other friend.
I hate this.
Why am I even hoping?
It just seems so wrong now.

And by the way,
the person who caused all this is now friends with Bean-chan again.
I feel so bitter when I think about it.
Isn't it unfair?
But I'm such a fool.
Always a fool to the people I cherish.
Because even though she caused this,
even though she betrayed us,
even though she lied to us,
even though she left our relationship with Bean-chan like this,
I decided not to confront her anymore.

It's not pure affection, though.
I know that if I confront her,
she would go to Bean-chan and say things about us again.
I would not allow that.
I need to keep her close and watch her actions.
And I can't bear to lose another friend.
Let fate punish her if it's needed.

Well. I shall stop with this now.
Thank you for reading!