A huge thank you...
... for everyone's kind words in my last journal. Seriously, you guys are amazing and I love and adore every single one of you.
How am I now? Much better thank you. All of you helped that, your advice was amazing and your words of confidence helped me feel better about myself. For example, whilst I don't think I'm drop dead sexy or anything... or particularly pretty for that matter, I know that in the world, some people find me pretty and say that to me. And they're the people that matter. We're our own worst critic, but our friends can be the best confidence boosters in the world. Something kind of funny happened the other day, I did that thing where you're in your underwear (sorry for anyone who had that image then) and suck in your tummy to luck thinner... and something hit me, if I were HUGELY thinner... I would look awful. I used ot be thin, but that was when I lacked curves. If I suddnly lost everything around my middle then I would be horrible out of proportion. That's not saying I wouldn't liek to lose a little... but I don't feel huge anymore.
Friend at college is still being a pain... as Char knows (thanks for listening to my rant), BUT... it's becoming rarer now. I'm starting to talk to other people now and it's much better for me. When she's nice, she's lovely... and THAT'S the girl I made friends with, not the moody alternative. I knwo we all have our bad days, I see that in all of my friends... I just wish she wouldn't ALWAYS take it out on me. Heck, she could have least PRETENDED she was happy for me with my AS result (two marks off an A =D). She said "Well done" but that was IT. The rest of my class seemed to care more about my good result than she did. Bless them <3
So I now have an SLR, I called it Pavel (not names after Chekov... nope, certianly not DX). We did another green screen shoot and they came out much better. I am much, much happier with them now. I guess I was just having a bad day... it really didn't help that I was seriously ill on the day.
So yeah... I seriously love you all guys! Thank you all for your awesome and kind words. Sometimes, a friend is all you need... but then along came six. I was so happy. You all rule and are all very beautiful people, inside and out <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 (one for each of you)
How am I now? Much better thank you. All of you helped that, your advice was amazing and your words of confidence helped me feel better about myself. For example, whilst I don't think I'm drop dead sexy or anything... or particularly pretty for that matter, I know that in the world, some people find me pretty and say that to me. And they're the people that matter. We're our own worst critic, but our friends can be the best confidence boosters in the world. Something kind of funny happened the other day, I did that thing where you're in your underwear (sorry for anyone who had that image then) and suck in your tummy to luck thinner... and something hit me, if I were HUGELY thinner... I would look awful. I used ot be thin, but that was when I lacked curves. If I suddnly lost everything around my middle then I would be horrible out of proportion. That's not saying I wouldn't liek to lose a little... but I don't feel huge anymore.
Friend at college is still being a pain... as Char knows (thanks for listening to my rant), BUT... it's becoming rarer now. I'm starting to talk to other people now and it's much better for me. When she's nice, she's lovely... and THAT'S the girl I made friends with, not the moody alternative. I knwo we all have our bad days, I see that in all of my friends... I just wish she wouldn't ALWAYS take it out on me. Heck, she could have least PRETENDED she was happy for me with my AS result (two marks off an A =D). She said "Well done" but that was IT. The rest of my class seemed to care more about my good result than she did. Bless them <3
So I now have an SLR, I called it Pavel (not names after Chekov... nope, certianly not DX). We did another green screen shoot and they came out much better. I am much, much happier with them now. I guess I was just having a bad day... it really didn't help that I was seriously ill on the day.
So yeah... I seriously love you all guys! Thank you all for your awesome and kind words. Sometimes, a friend is all you need... but then along came six. I was so happy. You all rule and are all very beautiful people, inside and out <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 (one for each of you)