I just don't know what to do about this folks. I don't know what to do to get out of this funk.
I am tired of feeling like the the evil witch.
When I talk to my doctors I get the Well if you exercise you will feel better. Well folks I have to have some energy to exercise. And some freaking time.
I think all of the demands that have been put on me between the business and the kids and the scouts and this fucking micromanaged trip (that now feels like a burden that I do not want to go on)are finally just crashing on me.
THe kids do not want to be around me because the last few days all I want to do is sleep. Dave is preoccupied with scouts. Mom tells me I need to get MORE done in the office. WHy isn't this done bla bla bla....and 2 minutes later she is interrupting me with trip bullshit. Oh but don't plan 1 minute of personal time on the trip because we are doing this this and this. OMFG. I want to scream.
I have a doctors appt scheduled the week after we get back from NY. I will be getting a FULL blood panel including ovarian hormone levels checked. TIme to see wtf is wrong with me. I knwo that I should not feel this way and since I had a partial hysterectomy at 29 my ovaries took a huge hit and I have PCOS on top of this. My meds may need ajusting and maybe there is a chemical reason why I feel like I want to jump off a bridge and take half of the town with me. Well the part that is pissing me off anyway.
You know its bad if its many many hours later and chocolate and brandy has not helped.
Here's an interesting concept, darlin'...instead of trying to be super Mom, and the perfect wife, and the perfect employee, try to learn to use this word:
NO.
You do not have to do everything. When you get to this point, make someone else take the kids and demand you get some time for yourself. Don't let OTHER PEOPLE micromanage your life!
I am tired of feeling like the the evil witch.
When I talk to my doctors I get the Well if you exercise you will feel better. Well folks I have to have some energy to exercise. And some freaking time.
I think all of the demands that have been put on me between the business and the kids and the scouts and this fucking micromanaged trip (that now feels like a burden that I do not want to go on)are finally just crashing on me.
THe kids do not want to be around me because the last few days all I want to do is sleep. Dave is preoccupied with scouts. Mom tells me I need to get MORE done in the office. WHy isn't this done bla bla bla....and 2 minutes later she is interrupting me with trip bullshit. Oh but don't plan 1 minute of personal time on the trip because we are doing this this and this. OMFG. I want to scream.
I have a doctors appt scheduled the week after we get back from NY. I will be getting a FULL blood panel including ovarian hormone levels checked. TIme to see wtf is wrong with me. I knwo that I should not feel this way and since I had a partial hysterectomy at 29 my ovaries took a huge hit and I have PCOS on top of this. My meds may need ajusting and maybe there is a chemical reason why I feel like I want to jump off a bridge and take half of the town with me. Well the part that is pissing me off anyway.
You know its bad if its many many hours later and chocolate and brandy has not helped.
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NO.
You do not have to do everything. When you get to this point, make someone else take the kids and demand you get some time for yourself. Don't let OTHER PEOPLE micromanage your life!
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I am just in a funk and I need to pull myself up by the bootstraps and get over it.
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