'You melted into the sunset, but I remember you.'
Well first of all I should probably start by saying 'o hai, been a while but i has an update', and I'd also like to say 'Happy New Year'. I have high hopes for this year. Now the latter half of 2010 (one of the most difficult times I've experienced in a long while) has ended, I feel like maybe it's ok to hope that things will start looking up for me, for all of us.
My grandfather on my dad's side and my grandmother on my mother's side passed away within just over a month of each other, and it's taken me a while to be able pull myself back to my feet again, wave goodbye to them, manage a bit of a smile and carry on. Wherever they are now, I hope my grandma has several friendly cats and a huge, sunny garden she can tend to all day, and that my grandfather, who was always happiest looking after his pigeons or working with his hands, is doing just that, and is never short of something to do.
Nana, Grandad, I love you both so much. I've never been good at saying it to anyone, but I really wish I'd have told you that while you were still with us.
As I said, I have high hopes that 2011 will pass by and finish on a much better note than 2010. I'm looking forward to spring, to walking on warm evenings and admiring the cherry trees (and fondly remembering my grandfather in his blue overalls working in his pigeon sheds and my grandmother talking about all the different flowers that're starting to blossom in her garden), to possibly going back to Lanzarote with everyone, to doing much more writing and trying my best to create something worth publishing. I really want to work on that most of all. Even if nothing comes of it, at least I'll be able to say I tried to achieve something that I've always wanted to, that I didn't just think 'oh, I'm not good enough' and not even give it a go.
So that's what I'm gonna do this year. Whether it's writing, or even if it's something else, I'm going to give it a go and see what comes of it.
My grandfather on my dad's side and my grandmother on my mother's side passed away within just over a month of each other, and it's taken me a while to be able pull myself back to my feet again, wave goodbye to them, manage a bit of a smile and carry on. Wherever they are now, I hope my grandma has several friendly cats and a huge, sunny garden she can tend to all day, and that my grandfather, who was always happiest looking after his pigeons or working with his hands, is doing just that, and is never short of something to do.
Nana, Grandad, I love you both so much. I've never been good at saying it to anyone, but I really wish I'd have told you that while you were still with us.
As I said, I have high hopes that 2011 will pass by and finish on a much better note than 2010. I'm looking forward to spring, to walking on warm evenings and admiring the cherry trees (and fondly remembering my grandfather in his blue overalls working in his pigeon sheds and my grandmother talking about all the different flowers that're starting to blossom in her garden), to possibly going back to Lanzarote with everyone, to doing much more writing and trying my best to create something worth publishing. I really want to work on that most of all. Even if nothing comes of it, at least I'll be able to say I tried to achieve something that I've always wanted to, that I didn't just think 'oh, I'm not good enough' and not even give it a go.
So that's what I'm gonna do this year. Whether it's writing, or even if it's something else, I'm going to give it a go and see what comes of it.