63. Entry
Private//Unhackable
Every since that one curse where the City decided I should be in a torrent love affair with one of the Doctor's at the hospital. Things with Skinner have gotten so complicated. It feels far too rushed for my taste. He keeps proclaiming love under these curses. Honestly, every man who has said he loves me...I've lost in one way or another.
Really I could see him as more than a friend...but if I am truthful with myself I can also see Henry and Sawyer in the same light. They are all for the most part good men, but I do not feel like a good woman. I failed my husband twice. I failed my son. What does it say about me that I fell for someone like Dorian? Or that I had sex with the Count during a curse and am not wholly regretful of it?
I know I am not ready to open myself up again. I do not know when or if I shall ever be able to open myself up again. However I do know that I will not be forced or rushed into another relationship. Simply because this City likes to meddle. I have no wish to hurt Skinner, but I shall stay firm in my resolve.
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Every since that one curse where the City decided I should be in a torrent love affair with one of the Doctor's at the hospital. Things with Skinner have gotten so complicated. It feels far too rushed for my taste. He keeps proclaiming love under these curses. Honestly, every man who has said he loves me...I've lost in one way or another.
Really I could see him as more than a friend...but if I am truthful with myself I can also see Henry and Sawyer in the same light. They are all for the most part good men, but I do not feel like a good woman. I failed my husband twice. I failed my son. What does it say about me that I fell for someone like Dorian? Or that I had sex with the Count during a curse and am not wholly regretful of it?
I know I am not ready to open myself up again. I do not know when or if I shall ever be able to open myself up again. However I do know that I will not be forced or rushed into another relationship. Simply because this City likes to meddle. I have no wish to hurt Skinner, but I shall stay firm in my resolve.
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