moving into my life
i think i would like to learn proper grammer, spelling and "correct" ways of writing. yet another thing i have resisted because of my vehement rebellion against structure... and the emperor-card/my-father's-abusive-control-over-us-kids.... the unfolding of the healing from this last ayahausca circle is allowing me to open to a whole world previously locked away from me because of my rebellion against that shit.
this last year of peace and happiness has allowed so much change. i have tentatively peeked outside of the skin of my old self and found that i really like what i see here in the sunshine. new skin now... shed the old... the past exists and is valid in the past... but i live now. here, i do not need to protect myself from the bearded man who caused so much pain. he is not here. now is free. now is pure potential.
this last year of peace and happiness has allowed so much change. i have tentatively peeked outside of the skin of my old self and found that i really like what i see here in the sunshine. new skin now... shed the old... the past exists and is valid in the past... but i live now. here, i do not need to protect myself from the bearded man who caused so much pain. he is not here. now is free. now is pure potential.