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[madamadasuckers]

So the monkey king had a birthday. Woohoo. Would've ignored it, but it seems like everyone had to go and point it out. Now the guy's going to keep thinking the whole world revolves around him when really, I bet most of the world didn't care he had a birthday. I know I didn't

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[wildosakaprince]

Ya know, speakin' as somebody else who's been watchin' sempaitachi talk about college, I think I gotta agree...change majorly sucks sometimes. ...I mean, it was bad enough for me just seein' Kuranosuke separate from the rest of us. And now not only are they all gonna go and leave...they're all prolly gonna be too busy with their separate college lives to pay any attention to the kid they left behind...
...Fuckin' sucks bein' younger than everybody else sometimes too.

[madamadasuckers]

Yeah, they're probably gonna forget all about us once they move on with their lives and all. Royally sucks. Kinda makes me feel used, too.... And can't do much about being younger, but at least we're more awesome than them.

[wildosakaprince]

Yeah, prolly. But it ain't like they got some sorta obligations toward us or anything. Just the stupid brats that tended to cause trouble for everybody and weren't really worth the effort of keepin' up with. So why would they still pay attention to us? I caused mine alotta grief over the years. Yers might think the same way.
...I mean, sure, I'll still have Zaizen 'round for a while longer, and he might even stick around since he's kinda always been 'round ever since grade school, like some sorta stupid brother that always gets in the way. ...But he's not that interestin' and he's just gonna sit and mope once Kenya leaves and then he'll get on my nerves 'cause he's bein' boring. So still havin' him 'round won't be that great.
I don't mind bein' used. ...So long as I'm always of use to 'em. But I'm guessin' I not gonna be that lucky. 'Course we're more awesome than 'em~ That was never somethin' up for debate~ ...Just wish we could be both awesome and able to stick with the rest of them.

[madamadasuckers]

Yeah...the brats that caused almost more trouble than they were worth overall, so they'll probably be sighing in relief when they don't have to worry about us anymore. Momo-senpai will still be around, too, but it's never the same, and how long before they're gearing up to move on, too?

I don't like thinking I'm being used for one thing. Like I'm worthless beyond that. Maybe they'll realize how awesome we are and come begging back to us again.

[wildosakaprince]

...Makes me wonder if I'd been on my best behavior like Otou always says I need to be, that maybe they'd be more likely ta wanna stick with me? Kuranosuke always said he started goin' gray early 'cause of me, so I wouldn't really be surprised if they all were sighin' in relief knowin' they ain't gotta manage us no more. But even those that stick 'round for a while longer are gonna leave 'ventually too. They all got their own lives to live, with their own goals ta chase after. We're just afterthoughts in the long run, Koshimae. The kids that they'll open the newspaper and say "Oh, I remember him~ Good to see he's doin' well." about when we become pros and that's it before they go back to their own lives.

I wouldn't say it was just for one thing. Bein' used for one thing would be our Otous' deal. ...I'd rather be used for everything that my friends used me for even if it's not forever than spend an eternity bein' used by Otou for that one thing. ...Wishful thinkin', Koshimae. I don't think we'll be that lucky.

[madamadasuckers]

Then you wouldn't have been you...nothing saying that they would've like that person any better, right? Guess we'll be doing the same thing, one day, leavin' them behind and all, and, I have to say, there's a part of me that hopes it hurts them, too, when they realize it.

Would they have noticed us if it weren't for that one thing, though? Well, yours, maybe. Mine, not as much. Maybe, maybe not. Wishing's better than nothing, though.

[wildosakaprince]

...Maybe. Dunno. Kura woulda been able to keep his original hair color at least, though. And then maybe I wouldn'ta been such a headache for him and everybody else. I guess so, when ya put it like that. We'd haveta leave them behind ourselves anyway, so it's somethin' that's destined to happen one way or another. ...Though I wonder if it'd really bother them that much if they knew we were leavin'. ...'S not like they'd been relyin' on us the way we relied on them.

Mine already knew me before I was even a student at Shitenhouji, 'cause I always went there lookin' for Zaizen after class. But since I always ended up playin' tennis with them when I got there, I guess they did take notice of me more than any other kid 'cause of it. ....Though they didn't act like that was the only thing they were interested in 'bout me. And that's what mattered. I guess... But bein' cocky usually ain't somethin' that makes folks wanna come and beg ya for anything.

[madamadasuckers]

Che...gota be who you are. What good is it if you bottle it all up and put on a false face? I dunno about bothering them...I'm not sure it would. Mine pretty much shoved me on a plane once without a second thought of what it would do to me, so...maybe. I don't know.

If I hadn't had tennis, I know none of them would've noticed me. I'd have just been the cocky American freshman that needed to be taken down many pegs...but maybe I'd never have come over here, anyways. Depends on if that kinda thing gets them off or not.

[wildosakaprince]

...I know it sounds stupid, but...I can't help thinkin' that maybe if I'd been that way...even just a lil' bit, ...that maybe I wouldn't be worryin' like I am right now 'bout bein' left behind and forgotten. ...Why'd they shove ya on a plane for? Did ya really haveta be somewhere that important?

Somethin' tells me they still woulda noticed ya just *'cause* you were that cocky American freshman that needed ta be taken down a buncha pegs~ ...Though it's not like bein' noticed 'cause of tennis is a bad thing. I came lookin' for ya in the beginnin' 'cause of that reason myself, since I hadn't ever met anyone else who knew what it was like to be in my shoes and lived and breathed tennis the same way I did~ And then I made myself a friend 'cause of that tennis~ So havin' that tennis is a good thing and I'm glad it ended up bringin' ya to Japan so we could find each other~ Heh~ I guess there prolly are those types out there who're into that kinda thing~ Everybody's got their weird kinks, like Koharu always says.

[madamadasuckers]

Or maybe you'd be worring worse, 'cause you would be worrying that you hadn't let them know that you cared 'cause you were too busy being polite. Freshman year of middle school, right before Nationals...I had a chance to play in the junior U.S. Open, but I could've ended up missing Nationals, so...I didn't want to go. I wanted to play with them. They...didn't feel the same way, I guess....

But without the tennis...don't think they'd have cared so much about a random freshman. Don't think they pay attention to the non tennis players much. Heh...yeah, that's probably been the best thing that's come out of being shoved into this kind of mold, y'know? Yeah...I'm just trying not to think about it too much.

[wildosakaprince]

...Ya know, sometimes I seriously hate yer stupid logic, Koshimae... Ya spend too much time 'round that data dude. They were tryin' ta help ya. It coulda been a chance ova lifetime. ...Stuff they were wantin' for ya. ...And in a way, for 'emselves even. So ya can't fault 'em for that one. Maybe some selfish thoughts made it happen, but it was good for ya in the end. So don't get mad with 'em. They meant well when it comes down to it.

I dunno~ You're a force all yer own, Koshimae, so I ain't sayin' nothin' 'gainst what I think ya could do on yer own~ No matter if you're playin' tennis or not~ 'Cause I think you'd find a new way ta channel that energy towards somethin' fuckin' awesome anyhow~ Like....SUPER LIBRARY MASTER~!!! ...Or, okay, maybe not that superhero-ish, but I bet you could still be pretty awesome either way~ ...Wait.
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......Seriously~? Ya think I'm the best thing outta becomin' a tennis player~? It ain't so bad a thought~ You're forgettin' who I've been 'round for years~ They tried keepin' me innocent, but truth is...I

[madamadasuckers]

Yeah...Inui-senpai rubs off on people...and his juices kill them. I really wanted to be with them, though. Guess it worked out, 'cause I did both, but it kinda hurt that they were that willing to send me off.

Yeah...doubt there'll ever be a superhero working at the library. Mild-mannered reference clerk by day, defender of justice by night. Nah, it won't happen. And yeah, I do. So there. You probably do win there. I just ignored it all, 'cause I didn't really want to know. But I'm probably better at telling what's poisonous than you are.

[kurakurashi]

XD Kin-chan~.. that was a joke. This is my hair colour, I've had it since I was a baby.

I've read all this conversation you are having with Echizen and you are both so wrong. You shouldn't be thinking that because we are going to university, and some aren't, that we are going to forget you. I know I won't. Even if we met through tennis, you have to meet people somehow and you usually enjoy meeting those who have something in common, be a sport or a hobbie, it doesn't matter. But once you know them for years you start caring for them, so Echizen's idea that we senior students wouldn't even notice the freshmen if it wasn't for the club is true, but the way he says as if it was a bad thing or as if it's the only reason we care is because of the club, couldn't be more wrong.

And stop thinking that if you were different maybe we would care more. You are part of my life and I would change that, neither would I want you to change. You are a beautiful person, Kin-chan, in many ways.

[wildosakaprince]

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...I was *twelve* when ya made the joke, Kura. Still in fuckin' grade school. And ya already knew I weren't yer normal kid. ...So how were ya expectin' me ta take it? ...And how were ya expectin' it ta stick with me after that..and then alla this? ...'Cause for the past four fuckin' years I thought you were actually tellin' me the fuckin' goddamn truth.
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...THE FUCKIN' GODDAMN TRUTH!!! BUT YOU NEVER FUCKIN' THOUGHT TO TELL ME THAT TRUTH!!! SO WHY SHOULD I BELIEVE A FUCKIN' WORD YOU SAY 'BOUT ANYTHING FROM NOW ON!!!

GO TO HELL, KURANOSUKE. JUST GO TO FUCKING HELL.

[OOC: ...Ahem. I think it's an understatement saying Kin-chan's incredibly pissed right now. >>;]

[kurakurashi]

... What the hell just happened here?

[ooc: x_x both me and Kura are very confused right now]

[wildosakaprince]

Shut up. I'm not fuckin' talkin' to you...

[OOC: I don't think Kin-chan rage is completely capable of being understood. >>; But in the end, he's mostly upset over being lied to...for numerous years. And it's the "years" part that's bothering him right now. It doesn't matter how simple anyone, including Kura, thinks the lie was...it was still a lie in his mind, and it was for a long time.]