Again....?
Once again I am sitting here alone in my room. This time I thought maybe it would be easier, easier because I knew what I was getting into, I knew what to expect. Time to check-in, I can handle that. Time to walk to the security point...this should be a piece of cake (in theory) because I have done all this, TWICE. But all of a sudden there wasn't enough time left, I wanted to hold on for one more minute, it wasn't fair and I didn't think she should have to go right then. Stupid terrorist and stupid paranoid country and our dumb security rules (how unfair that I had to leave her almost 40 minutes before she actually boarded, I didn't get to watch her walk on to the plane,I had to watch her walk away all by herself). I thought I was going to be fine, until I had to hug her. That always seems to be the time when I just couldn't control it anymore. 9 weeks....and all of a sudden it wasn't enough time.
I will be ok, it's just one of those things that leaves your heart partially paralyzed for a little while. These 9 weeks have been some of the absolute best times of my life. Being with her teaches me something new about myself, life and the world around me everyday.
It is all to unfair and beautiful at the same time, to have her in my life. Unfair because she is on the other side of the world, and much to my dismay I am forced to live with the fact that I can't see her on any whim I desire. Beautiful because it works!! Because our friendship lasts, holds strong, continues, and is fabulous. Beautiful because she is beautiful...she shines and she is in my life. And no matter what!!! I wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't give her friendship up for anything.
No genetic ties at all, and still there is not a soul in the world that could convince me that Sylvia is not my sister. I love you. Watching you walk away today took my breath away, it was hard for me, it still is. But I know you have wonderful things ahead of you, I know I will be ok, and I know that in not too long we will meet again. You are always in my heart, soul and thoughts. Thank you for this indescribable summer!
Thank you for today. Signe and Tristen, I don't think I could have done that without you. My dad will never see this, but thank you. You guys made my day a little easier to handle.
Signe, we will stay and no more drifting apart. Keep a leash on me:)
Tristen I love you.
I will be ok, it's just one of those things that leaves your heart partially paralyzed for a little while. These 9 weeks have been some of the absolute best times of my life. Being with her teaches me something new about myself, life and the world around me everyday.
It is all to unfair and beautiful at the same time, to have her in my life. Unfair because she is on the other side of the world, and much to my dismay I am forced to live with the fact that I can't see her on any whim I desire. Beautiful because it works!! Because our friendship lasts, holds strong, continues, and is fabulous. Beautiful because she is beautiful...she shines and she is in my life. And no matter what!!! I wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't give her friendship up for anything.
No genetic ties at all, and still there is not a soul in the world that could convince me that Sylvia is not my sister. I love you. Watching you walk away today took my breath away, it was hard for me, it still is. But I know you have wonderful things ahead of you, I know I will be ok, and I know that in not too long we will meet again. You are always in my heart, soul and thoughts. Thank you for this indescribable summer!
Thank you for today. Signe and Tristen, I don't think I could have done that without you. My dad will never see this, but thank you. You guys made my day a little easier to handle.
Signe, we will stay and no more drifting apart. Keep a leash on me:)
Tristen I love you.