blugh
It's a blargh kinda day. There's nothing particularly bad about it, but it's that ugly kind of cloudy out, where the light isn't quite enough to see by and yet turning on a lamp would be silly. I haven't been sleeping well either. I got a full eight hours of sleep, but it feels like I tossed and turned all night -- the fact all my blankets were on the floor act as evidence. I've felt icky all day for it.
I still haven't been able to get back into the groove of writing. I've been able to poke at one story because I realized that I needed to drop a scene -- which solved the "What now?" part of the writer's block -- but I still can't seem to speed through things like I used to. I have to stop and wonder and be indecisive for way too long to be productive.
I hesitate to use the word "depression," with all its connotations and incorrect usages, but I've really fallen into a funk this summer. It feels like I can't trust anyone anymore; no one's reliable, no one has time, no one cares if they're wasting my time. Then I'm afraid I get too clingy whenever I manage to track down someone elusive. I want to get back into contact with some old friends, but they're twice as busy and/or flaky as everyone else.
I guess I should log off and get something done. I guess.
I still haven't been able to get back into the groove of writing. I've been able to poke at one story because I realized that I needed to drop a scene -- which solved the "What now?" part of the writer's block -- but I still can't seem to speed through things like I used to. I have to stop and wonder and be indecisive for way too long to be productive.
I hesitate to use the word "depression," with all its connotations and incorrect usages, but I've really fallen into a funk this summer. It feels like I can't trust anyone anymore; no one's reliable, no one has time, no one cares if they're wasting my time. Then I'm afraid I get too clingy whenever I manage to track down someone elusive. I want to get back into contact with some old friends, but they're twice as busy and/or flaky as everyone else.
I guess I should log off and get something done. I guess.