Oct 19, 2004 13:51
My Dearest,
I've missed you very very much since that last night we were together, and will hold that night especially in my memories for years to come. I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately. I've read your letter through at least four times, I'll probably read it more times before I'm through. I've been sitting here, looking at your picture and getting more homesick every minute. I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of. Except, of course, you yourself. I keep thinking of you, darling. I keep wishing I could be home with you. I want to leave in the worst possible way so I can come home to see you, but things dont look so good on that subject. This war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone, I guess. I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now, I'm completely lost without you, darling. I never realized I could miss one person so much. I just hope it wont be too much longer until I am able to be with you again. And live a sane and normal life.
This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing)
I'm so lost
I'm barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It's too late
To save me
You're too late
You're too late
You're cold with disappointment
While I'm drowning in the next room
The last contagious victim of this plague between us
I'm sick with apprehension
I'm crippled from exhaustion
And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me
This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing)
No, this isnt what I'm like...feeling. Its just a wicked song.
Speaking of feelings though, I've got one that kinda,well...sucks. I cant get it out of my mind and its driving me up the walls. Theres no quick fix for my problem either. I guess I'll just have to suck it up and wait for something worse to happen. That way I'll forget about right now...