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so i saw the butterfly effect yesterday, and it really made me think... ive thought like this before.... what if i could go back in my past, meet someone i know earlier in my life... maybe have them feel differently about me. I have that natural human urge to control... i have a want to control my life and those i care about and how they feel, but its impossible, so i go throught he normal human emotions of sadness and shit like that. Im just ready for change, im ready to drive (which i will be doing in less than a week if i dont fail the fairforest test), im ready to go live life, go have fun, be somebody, im ready for people to rely on me to do important (or unimportant) things for them... im ready for responsibilities... i guess its better that ive had to wait and be bored and lonely all this time because without that i might take for granted what i do have and get... im not really close to any of my friends, not like a best friend... i really dont feel like i have a "best friend" any more... brandon used to be my best friend but shits changed, and i havent even seen him in like 2 months....
I just wish life would hurry the fuck up and get to the good part, but i bet if that happened it would be over too soon.
all these 'what if' scenarios and i dont have the answers to any of them, i cant stop myself from wondering and wishing but i also cant make it happen.... thinking sucks....
I just wish life would hurry the fuck up and get to the good part, but i bet if that happened it would be over too soon.
all these 'what if' scenarios and i dont have the answers to any of them, i cant stop myself from wondering and wishing but i also cant make it happen.... thinking sucks....