parents have sold Beth Ruach
so: the saga so far.
parents have been trying to sell the house since before i went to uni. I didn’t want them to, so they held off until i finished, left home. new job out on my own and they sell. i've seen this coming for a long time, and ive been perhaps denying it but i received an e-mail today saying they are looking to move 3 sept 2012, would i like to come back one last time. this is what my response was.
17.8.12
Parents are looking at moving 3.9.12, asked if id like to go back home one last time
All I can focus on is saying goodbye to patch tiggy bryn and pip one last time.
Their graves are in the back garden. I helped dad dig patch and tiggy’s, somehow it feels so totally wrong to sell the ground in which they are buried. Its like you wouldn’t sell your parents or other family members graves. Its just wrong. And its like thats what they are doing. And I understand that thats not what they’re doing, but thats all I can focus on. I find myself re-greving the pets long dead and I don’t know why. Did I not properly greave for them before or were they still so close they in some way remained part of the family to me.
I’ve visited their graves and talked over the significant times in my life. GCSE’s A-levles, Going to university and coming back, both graduations, new girlfriends and leaving old ones. any time anyone has been added to their number, and any time ive just needed to discus things I don’t know who else to talk to.
Pebble isn’t as well as she has been since she had her pancreas out. It’s like shes a ghoast of who she once was and I feel its wrong that pebble will be separated in death from her mother and brother she knew so well. And I don’t know why It affects me this way.
Perhaps this is part of why I didn’t want mum and dad to move before I went to uni.
ps. since last update i've gained 2 degrees BSc, MSc, and Grandad died. i havent posted anything about grandad dieing because i havent spellchecked what i wrote then because i just cant bring myself to read it again.