Sorry everyone, especially megan and afra (The two i have done the worst to)

[mad_crash]

I dont know what i feel anymore.
I want someone to be there for me night and day with no strings attached.
I want to be there night and day with no strings attached for somebody.

I dont want to whine or make other people uncomfortable.
I want to go out and have fun. I want to be left alone.
I dont want to be alone. I want everyone to be my friend.
I want to lie and cheat and steal.
I want to bitch behind someones back.
I dont want them to get offended.
I want a million dollars and a different car.
I want to go to toronto
I dont want to go to U of T
I want to be in my 70's with a nice fat pension and no worries
I don't want to have emotions.
I dont want to cry.
I want to scream.
I dont want to feel as if everything i do has to be a show.
I dont want to watch what i say and do.
I want no obligations or responsibilites.
I want to feel pity.
I want to be pitied.
I dont want to seem melodramatic and teen angst
I want to say i'm sorry to everyone who has had to deal with my shit or has been
affected adversley by my existance