25 Months Ago
A lot has happened since the last entry. Remember how I said, "maybe things will be okay" ? Well, it did get okay. I had a few amazing months with this girl Megan Steele and other new and old friends. I've learned and experienced new things and while I feel wiser, I still don't feel as I once did. I'm chasing something and the more I look, the further away I get.
Being in Tennessee has changed me and while I sit here and think that this place hasn't been so bad, my life and whole persona in Louisiana is reaching out to me. And it's scary how much I have not learned, or not experienced just by being right here. Louisiana has culture and variety. And the people there are open and different. I miss that, and I miss feeling and growing. I wish there was something I could do that makes me think differently and have someone to talk to who can challenge my ways.
Anyway. This is a silent struggle I will continute to face for as long as my heart allows me to stay here. It's for my family.
Being in Tennessee has changed me and while I sit here and think that this place hasn't been so bad, my life and whole persona in Louisiana is reaching out to me. And it's scary how much I have not learned, or not experienced just by being right here. Louisiana has culture and variety. And the people there are open and different. I miss that, and I miss feeling and growing. I wish there was something I could do that makes me think differently and have someone to talk to who can challenge my ways.
Anyway. This is a silent struggle I will continute to face for as long as my heart allows me to stay here. It's for my family.