[FANFIC] Never Grow Up
Title: Never Grow Up
Author: macy
Pairing: implied YamaShi, OhgoJima
Genre: Familial
Rating: G
AN:
- songfic. Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift
- unbetaed, rushed
- once more using my old Yamada-family. :)
- it's my last day of vacation. :(((
- i made used of different POVs
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It might have been the most excruciating moment of my life. But I wouldn't exchange it for anything.
May 21, 2019, very early in the morning, when I gave birth to my Aki...
I caught the baby bug while holding Non-chan and Shou's newborn.
I've held babies before, of course, but holding their little Hoshimi-chan. Knowing that the little bundle in my arms came from these two people I love; that I've known since high school… it was such a beautiful thing.
And watching Ryosuke hold her, how he smiled at her littlest moves. He was so entranced with her. I knew he was feeling the same awe I was feeling.
I remember how we went home real quiet that night. When we arrived at our house, I was still deep in thought. As we entered our room, I tugged on to his shirt.
"Are you going to tell me what's on your mind now?" He asked me with a gentle smile.
I grinned back and pulled him to our bed.
"Do you think we're ready for that?" I asked him softly.
He looked surprised at what I said. I knew he knew at once what I meant. We've talked about it before; even before getting married. I know he always wanted kids. I do, too. But we also knew it would be a bit complicated with our profession. We needed to consider many things.
Ryosuke kept quiet for a while, in thought. And then slowly, he smiled and then looked at me.
"When you held Hoshimi-chan earlier…" He trailed off with a contented sigh.
"I was a little envious of Non-chan…" I admitted, feeling a little sheepish.
"Well, we already have a house." Ryosuke said. "We have four rooms. And we have our savings…"
I raised my brows at him, trying not to smile.
"Yamada-san, I'm thinking you want this more badly than I do." I told him.
He laughed.
"I wasn't a little envious earlier. I was seriously wishing it was our baby shower instead of theirs." He admitted, unabashed.
I laughed. "So we'll try?"
"Un. Let's do that."
I probably got pregnant that night, based on my due date.
I've played being pregnant in a drama a very long time ago, but that wasn't much help for the real thing. It wasn't easy. It was scary at times, knowing there are so many things that can go wrong if I made a mistake or meet an accident.
I was so thankful for Ryosuke. I knew it wasn't easy for him either especially with his busy schedule. But he endured and got me anything I craved, was patient with my tantrums and mood swings, and comfort me all the ways he can. I wouldn't know what would have happened if he wasn't besides me.
I took leave from work five months before my due date. We haven't announced it publicly until my leave so let's just say there were lots of feedbacks. Our agency knew of course, and it wasn't like it was a secret that we've tied the knot. There were lots of supporters, but as Ryosuke was still as popular --even more popular than ever, actually, there were also lots of dissatisfied fans.
A month before the due date, Ryosuke also took his leave. It was a relief for me. I was more scared than ever. I was equally excited and anxious for the day. I want to not be pregnant anymore, but because of what I heard about giving birth, I was very nervous.
I’d been having contractions for about a week before I finally went into labor. I kept waking up in the morning thinking, “Today’s the day.” During Ryosuke's birthday, we even went to the hospital but it was only a false alarm.
When my water broke, I've forgotten all about my anxiousness because I was just so relieved it was really finally finally the day.
I was so happy when I knew I was in labor. They brought me to the OR with Ryosuke in tow it kind of seemed to fly by after that. My pain tolerance just seemed to drop during pregnancy and I wasn't very happy with that. It hurt a lot, but I did get an epidural. I was in labor a total of seven hours all together.
Ryosuke was amazing and helped a lot during the pushing part. He held on to me the entire time and counted for me.
Everything was blurry but when I heard him start crying, it seems like I couldn't sense anything anymore but his voice. I couldn't feel pain or exhaustion anymore. When the nurse brought him to me, it was literally a miracle. I didn't even realize I started crying.
Ryosuke sat beside me and we just stayed like that, staring at little Aki until our families entered the room.
When we came back to the house, it somehow changed. It felt different, as if I'm only ever really coming home right then. It felt warmer. I thought I've already found a home in it with Ryosuke. I'm sure I did, but walking inside with Aki in my arms, I felt complete, I felt right at home.
During the first night Aki came home, I just couldn't leave him in his room. I love taking care of him, watching him, being with him.
Ryosuke personally decorated his room. There were many soccer-themed decorations and accessories. Curtains with soccer ball prints, soccer ball pillows… and the ceiling was painted green with white lines to resemble soccer field. The walls were painted white, but most of the furniture was in red and black. Ryosuke said he actually did research and found out red and white fascinates newborns and when they're months older, they would start to love looking at colors such as red and green.
It was so quiet and right then; Aki was the only one that matters.
Aki was already dozing off. So, carefully, I put him back to his crib and kissed him good night. As I pulled back,
Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
He was already asleep, but maybe he felt that I was about to leave. I couldn't help but smile as I whispered, "Mommy will stay."
It might just have been a coincidence, but his little hand slackened its grip to my finger, and I was able to pull back.
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
But instead of going, I just sat by the crib and continued watching him. He's just so beautiful.
A while later, the door opened and Ryosuke came in and sat next to me, placing an arm around me.
"Aren't you tired?" He softly asked.
"A little." I admitted.
He kissed my temple and then said, "You should rest now, so you'd be able to take care of him first thing in the morning."
I slowly nodded and gently he pulled me up and to our room.
The next days, weeks, months were the best even though it was exhausting. Everything seems to fascinate Aki.
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
And all he does fascinates me.
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that
I'd never know how, but I love him more and more as the days fly by. I'd give the world to him if I can. I'd do anything so he will be happy, so he'd never be harmed.
I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up
-
It was as if I just closed my eyes and suddenly Aki has grown. I could still see him as that little guy wrapped in blanket, carried by his mom but he wasn't that anymore.
He's already a big brother to Yuta and Yumi.
Already an idol; already in third year middle school.
He's already grown. He was a young man now.
"Dad, can I have my allowance for next week in advance?" Aki suddenly asked as we were eating dinner.
"Why?" I asked him, a little surprised. Aki doesn't usually ask for anything, really.
"My friends invited me to go to the movies with them this Saturday…" He said with a shrug.
"What will you be watching, nii-chan? Can I come?" Yumi excitedly asked.
"They want to go to the movies to have fun. Being with you is far from 'fun'." Yuta teased.
"Yuta…" Mirai warned as Yumi pouted and Yuta grinned mischievously.
"Yuka isn't coming, Yumi. It'll just be boys…" Aki told his little sister.
"Oh…" Yumi said, looking a little sad. She knew her nii-chan is saying she can't come.
"How much do you need? I'll just give it to you." I told him as he turned back to me.
"No, dad. It'll be fine with my allowance." He insisted.
"Just tell me how much you need, and then I'll just deduct it from your allowance." I said.
He laughed. "Okay then."
"I can drive you there." Mirai suddenly said.
"No, mom. I'll take the bus. I'll be fine." Aki said quickly. I couldn't help but notice the frantic expression on his face.
"It's fine. I have work that day. I can drop you off on my way." Mirai insisted.
Aki slowly nodded, though he still looked troubled. "Okay… Thanks." He said softly.
After dinner, I asked Aki to go to my office so I could give him the money. Silently, he followed me to the room.
"What was that about?" I asked nonchalantly as we entered the office.
"Hm?" He asked a little confused.
"You seemed terrified about your mom dropping you off…" I trailed off as I opened the table drawer.
He sighed. "It's not what you think…" He said. "It's not that I'm embarrassed of mom or anything like that. I love mom. And she's an awesome mom."
"What's it about then?" I asked him.
He sighed again. I couldn't help but laugh. "Aki, you're fourteen. You sigh as if you're holding the world upright."
He looked down and his face flush as he said. "I'm just tired of my friends calling me 'Suzuki Daichi'."
I blinked. I didn't expect that. More than anything, I couldn't believe they still know that character. Wait, I think they made a remake movie of Risou no Musuko… maybe that's how…
"And maybe I am a 'Suzuki Daichi'. But it's just annoying when my friends tease me." He continued saying with a grimace.
"That's why they keep teasing you." I told him. "You let it get to you. Just ignore them. Or maybe act even more like Suzuki Daichi on purpose. Then they'd find it boring to tease you."
"You think so?" He asked, looking unconvinced.
"Try it." I said with a shrug as I give him money.
On Saturday though, he still looked anxious.
You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
I remember when I was fourteen. And somehow, I can understand how he must be feeling. It was an age where the smallest things matters to you. I was also the same when I was that age. It was a time of adjustment, from being a kid to being an adult. You just feel somehow out of place.
At fourteen, there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
I watched as my wife asks our son to wear his seatbelt and Aki just sighed in defeat and nodded. And then he looked at his mom and said something. Mirai nodded sheepishly and took out her glasses. Aki smiled in mild amusement.
I waved as they drove off, feeling a little melancholy. Aki wasn't a little kid anymore. He didn't need protection anymore, not really. In his own way, he's already taking care of his mom.
But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older, too
And don't lose the way that you dance around
In your PJs getting ready for school
I still could see that Aki. And I still haven't stop wanting to protect him and his siblings. I think no matter how old they become, I would never stop wanting to take care of them. I wish they could stay like this.
No one's ever burned you
Nothing's ever left you scarred
I wish I never have to be away from any of them.
And even though you want to
Just try to never grow up
-
I smiled as I looked through the pictures on my bedside table. One from my high school years with my classmates, one with my best friend, Nakajima Yuka and one with my family.
I was just sixteen in that family picture. It was as if it was just yesterday when we took it. It was during Christmas. Keira, the golden retriever dad gave me as a gift was only a puppy in the picture. Now, she already has her own puppies.
I felt sad as I took the frames and put it in the box.
Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
I sat down my empty bed, looking at my bare room. Most of my things have already been packed up. I smiled nostalgically as I lie down; looking at the ceiling I've woken to see all my life.
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Dad really loves soccer; that was for sure. The paint was already fading, but it still looked like a soccer field, my ceiling.
I used to dream of being a professional soccer player. I wanted to do everything that would make my parents proud of me.
I miss those days. I love it especially when neither dad or mom has work and the five of us can hang out in the living room and watch a movie or something. Those times mom and dad would bake a cake together just because they want to… those times Yuta's favorite past time is to tease Yumi and Yumi would pretend to be upset so she could try and get me to side with her.
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
I remember that time when I was the one who got mad at Yumi and to comfort her, Yuta sang her a song.
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I sighed as I closed my eyes, seeing the memories more clearly in the darkness. It wasn't goodbye, but I knew everything will be changing.
I just realized everything I have
Is someday gonna be gone
We got to Minato-ku in the around noon. I have to admit, it was hard watching as they drove off.
So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
I knew I just needed some time to adjust, but I was already wishing I was back at home. This condo unit just isn't home. I put many photos up, but they might have added to my homesickness more than anything. I resisted the urge to call home; I knew my mom would just worry. Besides, I've already decided to live on my own. It was more practical this way, anyway. It's closer to my university, and to my work, and I can challenge myself to be independent.
I sighed as I entered my room. As I lay down my bed, I decided I'd paint my ceiling green, with white lines to resemble a soccer field.
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on
It was a lot simpler before.
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
-
I opened the door and I almost lost my balance as my mom hugged me. She was beaming. And then she let go of me just as quickly and went to the bed, almost running. Dad laughed from behind me and I turned to see him and Yuta and Yumi also entering the room.
"Congratulations!" Yuta said, patting me on the back.
Yumi just hugged me and then followed my mom. They pretty much did the same thing.
Dad placed an arm around my shoulder even though I'm a little taller than him now. He was silently congratulating me. And together, we approach our family.
"Oh, he's so beautiful, Yuka-chan." Mom said, holding our little Yuma. Suzuka-baachan was actually crying, and Yuto-jichan was trying to calm her.
Yuka just smiled, still exhausted from giving birth.
"He looks just like Aki…" Mom said in a whisper.
I felt dad nod. I could already feel the muscles on my face complaining but I couldn't help but grin in pride. I'm the happiest man alive just then.
My mom sighed as she caressed Yuma's face.
"If only you can stay like this…" I heard her say. And my dad moved to her, placing an arm around her as the two of them looked at my son.
I've heard her say that to Yuta and Yumi when they were just a baby. I never really thought much about it, but right then I finally understood.
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
I looked at Yuka, and she smiled at me tiredly. She understood, too.
Don't you ever grow up
Never grow up
Just never grow up
-
I didn't notice that Aki followed us out after saying good bye to them. I was a little startled when he called me.
"Sorry, mom." He said with a chuckle.
I just laughed and shook my head. "What is it?"
He shrugged. "Just wanted to see you out." He told me. Ryosuke, Yumi and Yuta were already in the car then.
I smiled and nodded.
"Congratulations." I told him. I remembered I haven't said so, with all the excitement.
He grinned, looking so very happy. "Thanks." And then he stepped closer and gave me a big hug. I understood he wasn't just thanking me for my greeting.
And as he held me, he whispered. "You're really the best mom ever."
I hit him jokingly, trying not to cry. "Mou, you're making me feel old."
"You are old, mom." He teased.
I hit him again, a little harder this time. He just laughed.
"I love you." He suddenly said.
I smiled. “I would never get tired hearing that." I told him.
“Don’t worry, I’d never grow out of that.” He promised, kissing me on the cheek.
-fin-
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EDIT:
sorry, i forgot to include the AN. though it isn't really very important. /shot
-first POV was mirai's, then ryo's, then aki's, then mirai's. but generally, the whole story is about being a mom.
-for those who haven't read my previous fics,
these are my headcanon for future fics:
-YamaShi married at 25 and has three kids - Akiyoshi, Yuta (2 years younger than Aki) and Yumiko (5 years younger than Aki)
-OhgoJima has an only daughter named 'Yuka' who is Aki's best friend and then more than that... lols
-new!YamaJima (AkixYuka) eventually had two kids named Yuma and Rai (both boys). i was planning on making Aki's baby a girl (named Akemi) in this fic but then i remembered i already used two sons in my other fic, Yamada's Valentine. so, to keep things constant... XD
Author: macy
Pairing: implied YamaShi, OhgoJima
Genre: Familial
Rating: G
AN:
- songfic. Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift
- unbetaed, rushed
- once more using my old Yamada-family. :)
- it's my last day of vacation. :(((
- i made used of different POVs
---
It might have been the most excruciating moment of my life. But I wouldn't exchange it for anything.
May 21, 2019, very early in the morning, when I gave birth to my Aki...
I caught the baby bug while holding Non-chan and Shou's newborn.
I've held babies before, of course, but holding their little Hoshimi-chan. Knowing that the little bundle in my arms came from these two people I love; that I've known since high school… it was such a beautiful thing.
And watching Ryosuke hold her, how he smiled at her littlest moves. He was so entranced with her. I knew he was feeling the same awe I was feeling.
I remember how we went home real quiet that night. When we arrived at our house, I was still deep in thought. As we entered our room, I tugged on to his shirt.
"Are you going to tell me what's on your mind now?" He asked me with a gentle smile.
I grinned back and pulled him to our bed.
"Do you think we're ready for that?" I asked him softly.
He looked surprised at what I said. I knew he knew at once what I meant. We've talked about it before; even before getting married. I know he always wanted kids. I do, too. But we also knew it would be a bit complicated with our profession. We needed to consider many things.
Ryosuke kept quiet for a while, in thought. And then slowly, he smiled and then looked at me.
"When you held Hoshimi-chan earlier…" He trailed off with a contented sigh.
"I was a little envious of Non-chan…" I admitted, feeling a little sheepish.
"Well, we already have a house." Ryosuke said. "We have four rooms. And we have our savings…"
I raised my brows at him, trying not to smile.
"Yamada-san, I'm thinking you want this more badly than I do." I told him.
He laughed.
"I wasn't a little envious earlier. I was seriously wishing it was our baby shower instead of theirs." He admitted, unabashed.
I laughed. "So we'll try?"
"Un. Let's do that."
I probably got pregnant that night, based on my due date.
I've played being pregnant in a drama a very long time ago, but that wasn't much help for the real thing. It wasn't easy. It was scary at times, knowing there are so many things that can go wrong if I made a mistake or meet an accident.
I was so thankful for Ryosuke. I knew it wasn't easy for him either especially with his busy schedule. But he endured and got me anything I craved, was patient with my tantrums and mood swings, and comfort me all the ways he can. I wouldn't know what would have happened if he wasn't besides me.
I took leave from work five months before my due date. We haven't announced it publicly until my leave so let's just say there were lots of feedbacks. Our agency knew of course, and it wasn't like it was a secret that we've tied the knot. There were lots of supporters, but as Ryosuke was still as popular --even more popular than ever, actually, there were also lots of dissatisfied fans.
A month before the due date, Ryosuke also took his leave. It was a relief for me. I was more scared than ever. I was equally excited and anxious for the day. I want to not be pregnant anymore, but because of what I heard about giving birth, I was very nervous.
I’d been having contractions for about a week before I finally went into labor. I kept waking up in the morning thinking, “Today’s the day.” During Ryosuke's birthday, we even went to the hospital but it was only a false alarm.
When my water broke, I've forgotten all about my anxiousness because I was just so relieved it was really finally finally the day.
I was so happy when I knew I was in labor. They brought me to the OR with Ryosuke in tow it kind of seemed to fly by after that. My pain tolerance just seemed to drop during pregnancy and I wasn't very happy with that. It hurt a lot, but I did get an epidural. I was in labor a total of seven hours all together.
Ryosuke was amazing and helped a lot during the pushing part. He held on to me the entire time and counted for me.
Everything was blurry but when I heard him start crying, it seems like I couldn't sense anything anymore but his voice. I couldn't feel pain or exhaustion anymore. When the nurse brought him to me, it was literally a miracle. I didn't even realize I started crying.
Ryosuke sat beside me and we just stayed like that, staring at little Aki until our families entered the room.
When we came back to the house, it somehow changed. It felt different, as if I'm only ever really coming home right then. It felt warmer. I thought I've already found a home in it with Ryosuke. I'm sure I did, but walking inside with Aki in my arms, I felt complete, I felt right at home.
During the first night Aki came home, I just couldn't leave him in his room. I love taking care of him, watching him, being with him.
Ryosuke personally decorated his room. There were many soccer-themed decorations and accessories. Curtains with soccer ball prints, soccer ball pillows… and the ceiling was painted green with white lines to resemble soccer field. The walls were painted white, but most of the furniture was in red and black. Ryosuke said he actually did research and found out red and white fascinates newborns and when they're months older, they would start to love looking at colors such as red and green.
It was so quiet and right then; Aki was the only one that matters.
Aki was already dozing off. So, carefully, I put him back to his crib and kissed him good night. As I pulled back,
Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
He was already asleep, but maybe he felt that I was about to leave. I couldn't help but smile as I whispered, "Mommy will stay."
It might just have been a coincidence, but his little hand slackened its grip to my finger, and I was able to pull back.
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
But instead of going, I just sat by the crib and continued watching him. He's just so beautiful.
A while later, the door opened and Ryosuke came in and sat next to me, placing an arm around me.
"Aren't you tired?" He softly asked.
"A little." I admitted.
He kissed my temple and then said, "You should rest now, so you'd be able to take care of him first thing in the morning."
I slowly nodded and gently he pulled me up and to our room.
The next days, weeks, months were the best even though it was exhausting. Everything seems to fascinate Aki.
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
And all he does fascinates me.
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that
I'd never know how, but I love him more and more as the days fly by. I'd give the world to him if I can. I'd do anything so he will be happy, so he'd never be harmed.
I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up
-
It was as if I just closed my eyes and suddenly Aki has grown. I could still see him as that little guy wrapped in blanket, carried by his mom but he wasn't that anymore.
He's already a big brother to Yuta and Yumi.
Already an idol; already in third year middle school.
He's already grown. He was a young man now.
"Dad, can I have my allowance for next week in advance?" Aki suddenly asked as we were eating dinner.
"Why?" I asked him, a little surprised. Aki doesn't usually ask for anything, really.
"My friends invited me to go to the movies with them this Saturday…" He said with a shrug.
"What will you be watching, nii-chan? Can I come?" Yumi excitedly asked.
"They want to go to the movies to have fun. Being with you is far from 'fun'." Yuta teased.
"Yuta…" Mirai warned as Yumi pouted and Yuta grinned mischievously.
"Yuka isn't coming, Yumi. It'll just be boys…" Aki told his little sister.
"Oh…" Yumi said, looking a little sad. She knew her nii-chan is saying she can't come.
"How much do you need? I'll just give it to you." I told him as he turned back to me.
"No, dad. It'll be fine with my allowance." He insisted.
"Just tell me how much you need, and then I'll just deduct it from your allowance." I said.
He laughed. "Okay then."
"I can drive you there." Mirai suddenly said.
"No, mom. I'll take the bus. I'll be fine." Aki said quickly. I couldn't help but notice the frantic expression on his face.
"It's fine. I have work that day. I can drop you off on my way." Mirai insisted.
Aki slowly nodded, though he still looked troubled. "Okay… Thanks." He said softly.
After dinner, I asked Aki to go to my office so I could give him the money. Silently, he followed me to the room.
"What was that about?" I asked nonchalantly as we entered the office.
"Hm?" He asked a little confused.
"You seemed terrified about your mom dropping you off…" I trailed off as I opened the table drawer.
He sighed. "It's not what you think…" He said. "It's not that I'm embarrassed of mom or anything like that. I love mom. And she's an awesome mom."
"What's it about then?" I asked him.
He sighed again. I couldn't help but laugh. "Aki, you're fourteen. You sigh as if you're holding the world upright."
He looked down and his face flush as he said. "I'm just tired of my friends calling me 'Suzuki Daichi'."
I blinked. I didn't expect that. More than anything, I couldn't believe they still know that character. Wait, I think they made a remake movie of Risou no Musuko… maybe that's how…
"And maybe I am a 'Suzuki Daichi'. But it's just annoying when my friends tease me." He continued saying with a grimace.
"That's why they keep teasing you." I told him. "You let it get to you. Just ignore them. Or maybe act even more like Suzuki Daichi on purpose. Then they'd find it boring to tease you."
"You think so?" He asked, looking unconvinced.
"Try it." I said with a shrug as I give him money.
On Saturday though, he still looked anxious.
You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
I remember when I was fourteen. And somehow, I can understand how he must be feeling. It was an age where the smallest things matters to you. I was also the same when I was that age. It was a time of adjustment, from being a kid to being an adult. You just feel somehow out of place.
At fourteen, there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
I watched as my wife asks our son to wear his seatbelt and Aki just sighed in defeat and nodded. And then he looked at his mom and said something. Mirai nodded sheepishly and took out her glasses. Aki smiled in mild amusement.
I waved as they drove off, feeling a little melancholy. Aki wasn't a little kid anymore. He didn't need protection anymore, not really. In his own way, he's already taking care of his mom.
But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older, too
And don't lose the way that you dance around
In your PJs getting ready for school
I still could see that Aki. And I still haven't stop wanting to protect him and his siblings. I think no matter how old they become, I would never stop wanting to take care of them. I wish they could stay like this.
No one's ever burned you
Nothing's ever left you scarred
I wish I never have to be away from any of them.
And even though you want to
Just try to never grow up
-
I smiled as I looked through the pictures on my bedside table. One from my high school years with my classmates, one with my best friend, Nakajima Yuka and one with my family.
I was just sixteen in that family picture. It was as if it was just yesterday when we took it. It was during Christmas. Keira, the golden retriever dad gave me as a gift was only a puppy in the picture. Now, she already has her own puppies.
I felt sad as I took the frames and put it in the box.
Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
I sat down my empty bed, looking at my bare room. Most of my things have already been packed up. I smiled nostalgically as I lie down; looking at the ceiling I've woken to see all my life.
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Dad really loves soccer; that was for sure. The paint was already fading, but it still looked like a soccer field, my ceiling.
I used to dream of being a professional soccer player. I wanted to do everything that would make my parents proud of me.
I miss those days. I love it especially when neither dad or mom has work and the five of us can hang out in the living room and watch a movie or something. Those times mom and dad would bake a cake together just because they want to… those times Yuta's favorite past time is to tease Yumi and Yumi would pretend to be upset so she could try and get me to side with her.
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
I remember that time when I was the one who got mad at Yumi and to comfort her, Yuta sang her a song.
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I sighed as I closed my eyes, seeing the memories more clearly in the darkness. It wasn't goodbye, but I knew everything will be changing.
I just realized everything I have
Is someday gonna be gone
We got to Minato-ku in the around noon. I have to admit, it was hard watching as they drove off.
So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
I knew I just needed some time to adjust, but I was already wishing I was back at home. This condo unit just isn't home. I put many photos up, but they might have added to my homesickness more than anything. I resisted the urge to call home; I knew my mom would just worry. Besides, I've already decided to live on my own. It was more practical this way, anyway. It's closer to my university, and to my work, and I can challenge myself to be independent.
I sighed as I entered my room. As I lay down my bed, I decided I'd paint my ceiling green, with white lines to resemble a soccer field.
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on
It was a lot simpler before.
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
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I opened the door and I almost lost my balance as my mom hugged me. She was beaming. And then she let go of me just as quickly and went to the bed, almost running. Dad laughed from behind me and I turned to see him and Yuta and Yumi also entering the room.
"Congratulations!" Yuta said, patting me on the back.
Yumi just hugged me and then followed my mom. They pretty much did the same thing.
Dad placed an arm around my shoulder even though I'm a little taller than him now. He was silently congratulating me. And together, we approach our family.
"Oh, he's so beautiful, Yuka-chan." Mom said, holding our little Yuma. Suzuka-baachan was actually crying, and Yuto-jichan was trying to calm her.
Yuka just smiled, still exhausted from giving birth.
"He looks just like Aki…" Mom said in a whisper.
I felt dad nod. I could already feel the muscles on my face complaining but I couldn't help but grin in pride. I'm the happiest man alive just then.
My mom sighed as she caressed Yuma's face.
"If only you can stay like this…" I heard her say. And my dad moved to her, placing an arm around her as the two of them looked at my son.
I've heard her say that to Yuta and Yumi when they were just a baby. I never really thought much about it, but right then I finally understood.
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
I looked at Yuka, and she smiled at me tiredly. She understood, too.
Don't you ever grow up
Never grow up
Just never grow up
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I didn't notice that Aki followed us out after saying good bye to them. I was a little startled when he called me.
"Sorry, mom." He said with a chuckle.
I just laughed and shook my head. "What is it?"
He shrugged. "Just wanted to see you out." He told me. Ryosuke, Yumi and Yuta were already in the car then.
I smiled and nodded.
"Congratulations." I told him. I remembered I haven't said so, with all the excitement.
He grinned, looking so very happy. "Thanks." And then he stepped closer and gave me a big hug. I understood he wasn't just thanking me for my greeting.
And as he held me, he whispered. "You're really the best mom ever."
I hit him jokingly, trying not to cry. "Mou, you're making me feel old."
"You are old, mom." He teased.
I hit him again, a little harder this time. He just laughed.
"I love you." He suddenly said.
I smiled. “I would never get tired hearing that." I told him.
“Don’t worry, I’d never grow out of that.” He promised, kissing me on the cheek.
-fin-
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EDIT:
sorry, i forgot to include the AN. though it isn't really very important. /shot
-first POV was mirai's, then ryo's, then aki's, then mirai's. but generally, the whole story is about being a mom.
-for those who haven't read my previous fics,
these are my headcanon for future fics:
-YamaShi married at 25 and has three kids - Akiyoshi, Yuta (2 years younger than Aki) and Yumiko (5 years younger than Aki)
-OhgoJima has an only daughter named 'Yuka' who is Aki's best friend and then more than that... lols
-new!YamaJima (AkixYuka) eventually had two kids named Yuma and Rai (both boys). i was planning on making Aki's baby a girl (named Akemi) in this fic but then i remembered i already used two sons in my other fic, Yamada's Valentine. so, to keep things constant... XD