Who's a whore????
So this weekend we had a BBQ.. We really got to know Tanda.. She is great.. We all got pretty drunk.. The weird thing was I only had 2 beers and 5shots.. It usually takes a lot more to get me that hammered.. I sobered up pretty fast though.. Well everything was going well.. Everyone was dancing.. Tanda was trying to get Kris to join her in the bathroom.. that was funny.. He wasn't drunk... Mo and Josh were wrestling.. It was cool.. Meg and Nicole had talked.. It was great.. I couldn't help to have such a smile on my face.. everyone seemed happy.. And it made me happy.. And I was drunk.. I wish Sandra would have made it.. She would have been in the loop.. lol.. And then Things weren't going very well.. I guess Lynn doesn't like that kid Josh for some reason.. She said some really mean things to him.. I felt bad.. Josh and I are cool with each other.. he flatters my ego.. Nothing has happened with Josh and I other then he bit my neck.. but nothing else has happened.. we like to flirt and make up stories.. We know the truth and that's all that matters.. Hes an 18 year old man and im 27.. Its all good.. Well I thought Lynn and Kyle had left.. But Kyle left with out her... Which was kinda funny.. but anyway.. So yes I am flattered that Lynn was defending me.. but there was nothing to defend and we just ended up in a fight.. This is about the time I was called a Whore.. I went to defend myself.. and Mo stepped in.. Alot of shit was said.. to much.. A lit cigarette was thrown.. A secret came out.. All in all it was just a bad mistake.. But Mo is great.. He totally defended me.. I needed that.. I wish it all would have never happened.. And really truly I did nothing wrong.. It really doesn't matter who I sleep with or what I do.. It my business.. A opinion can be said.. And I will defiantly heed that call if its for the best.. But it also needs to be put to someone in a loving way.. And I myself.. Need to realize to stop basing my life around what people think.. These are my decisions.. And friend or Family should still love and stand by me no matter what.. So I'm not going to beat myself up over the Billy thing.. I had that relationship.. It was hell.. But I was there.. I know how I felt for him.. And if I sleep with him 5years later.. Who cares.. It was one night.. And it was great.. Wow.. I needed to say that.. I actually feel better.. I do apologize for the secret.. But it really wasn't what you think.. It was told to defend someone.. But she will never understand... So I'm not going to argue about it.. So I ended up sending Lynn home.. She was wasted.. Mo and Meg left soon after.. Off to bed I went.. With out Josh.. hahahahaha
Sunday I got up and Tanda and I went out shopping.. We had fun.. Earrings were our thing.. lol.. I wish Meg could have gone... We went back to the house and met up with Kris.. They are very cute.. Kris stayed and watched TV.. Poor Tanda.. There is no cable at Kris's, no phone, no computer.. nothing for her to do.. Bad Boyfriend....
That night I went out with Errol and Leyna.. They were acting like Jim and Audra.. Hahahaha.. I told Leyna about everything that had been going on.. She was shocked about Billy and I.. But she was so supportive.. And that was so sweet.... I support her and Errol... My opinion was said.. But they seem happy and that's their business.. They really made me feel loved..
Monday.. Stupid car.. My starter went out.. piece of shit.. so I had to take the day off.. Well I decided I didn't want to play these stupid games with Billy.. We've already ran that path.. So I called him.. And he still wont change.. It was retarded.. I was going to ask him to go to the movies.. But hes so into games.. We were on and off the phone most the night by the time I mentioned it.. It was way to late.. I could tell he wanted too.. But hes a Jack ass... So he was like I'm going to McDuffy's.. But saying it as if to ask me to go.. And I was like.. Have a good time.. lol.. I couldn't help it.. He plays so many games.. Then he referred to him and I having sex.. So I know were gonna do it again.. which would be awesome... I need it.. Lol..
Sunday I got up and Tanda and I went out shopping.. We had fun.. Earrings were our thing.. lol.. I wish Meg could have gone... We went back to the house and met up with Kris.. They are very cute.. Kris stayed and watched TV.. Poor Tanda.. There is no cable at Kris's, no phone, no computer.. nothing for her to do.. Bad Boyfriend....
That night I went out with Errol and Leyna.. They were acting like Jim and Audra.. Hahahaha.. I told Leyna about everything that had been going on.. She was shocked about Billy and I.. But she was so supportive.. And that was so sweet.... I support her and Errol... My opinion was said.. But they seem happy and that's their business.. They really made me feel loved..
Monday.. Stupid car.. My starter went out.. piece of shit.. so I had to take the day off.. Well I decided I didn't want to play these stupid games with Billy.. We've already ran that path.. So I called him.. And he still wont change.. It was retarded.. I was going to ask him to go to the movies.. But hes so into games.. We were on and off the phone most the night by the time I mentioned it.. It was way to late.. I could tell he wanted too.. But hes a Jack ass... So he was like I'm going to McDuffy's.. But saying it as if to ask me to go.. And I was like.. Have a good time.. lol.. I couldn't help it.. He plays so many games.. Then he referred to him and I having sex.. So I know were gonna do it again.. which would be awesome... I need it.. Lol..