Wake Me Up When September Ends...
Lately I've felt really sad... There's like three things that are really bugging me... It's depressing...
~I am sad because I just found out my cousin is moving to Texas... I'm angry at him... He's leaving in like a week and he never even told me himself! I had to find out Saturday night, after my good day hanging with my friends... My mom told me she said she talked to my Gramma and she found out from my Aunt Debbie! That's crap... he can't even tell me himself... what a jerk... i don't kno why i put up with his shit... all he ever does is hurt me! I mean it feels like i'm loosing him, i've already lost my uncle this year and in a way i feel like i'm loosing my cousin! I don't kno how much more loss i can take! This is bothering me but i act like it doesn't cuz i gotta be strong and happy for grace... she's got it real bad...
~The second thing that is bothering me is my uncle... the other night i just broke down and started crying... I felt really bad cuz I was spending the night at Grace's house... but since then I keep crying myself to sleep... I can't stop thinking about him... I've had the reoccuring dream these past few nights... it was my uncles funeral... it's disturbing... i hate it... i wake up crying... it's aweful... i think part of it is i've held it all in, i've had to be strong for my whole family... i've tried to not think about it... and act as though it never happened, but it did, and now my family will never be the same again... i've realized how much i really missed him... i feel ashamed for denying the truth from myself... is that so wrong? I don't kno anymore... All i kno is that my family is falling apart and i can't stop it...
~Thirdly, The guy I like is driving me nuts! I just can't stand it... How can one person make u so happy but at the same time so sad? Guys suck! They're too confusing! I wish I knew how he felt and what he wants! But I guess I'll never kno....
Wake Me Up When September Ends... Hopefully October is better!
~I am sad because I just found out my cousin is moving to Texas... I'm angry at him... He's leaving in like a week and he never even told me himself! I had to find out Saturday night, after my good day hanging with my friends... My mom told me she said she talked to my Gramma and she found out from my Aunt Debbie! That's crap... he can't even tell me himself... what a jerk... i don't kno why i put up with his shit... all he ever does is hurt me! I mean it feels like i'm loosing him, i've already lost my uncle this year and in a way i feel like i'm loosing my cousin! I don't kno how much more loss i can take! This is bothering me but i act like it doesn't cuz i gotta be strong and happy for grace... she's got it real bad...
~The second thing that is bothering me is my uncle... the other night i just broke down and started crying... I felt really bad cuz I was spending the night at Grace's house... but since then I keep crying myself to sleep... I can't stop thinking about him... I've had the reoccuring dream these past few nights... it was my uncles funeral... it's disturbing... i hate it... i wake up crying... it's aweful... i think part of it is i've held it all in, i've had to be strong for my whole family... i've tried to not think about it... and act as though it never happened, but it did, and now my family will never be the same again... i've realized how much i really missed him... i feel ashamed for denying the truth from myself... is that so wrong? I don't kno anymore... All i kno is that my family is falling apart and i can't stop it...
~Thirdly, The guy I like is driving me nuts! I just can't stand it... How can one person make u so happy but at the same time so sad? Guys suck! They're too confusing! I wish I knew how he felt and what he wants! But I guess I'll never kno....
Wake Me Up When September Ends... Hopefully October is better!