06x20 reaction post
tl;dr in which Rebeca over analyzes everything, somehow becomes a dean/cas fan, and is way too emotional for her own good.
Let me preface this by saying that before this episode I had only a vague sense of appreciation for Castiel and any supposed love between him and Dean. ('Cause apparently I'm blind and delusional.) Also, I was expecting this episode to be unwatchable because of the lack of Winchesters. So the fact that I loved it was really unexpected and just crazy. But really, this episode was a game-changer for me.
- I really enjoyed the flashbacks with the fish and the bible stories. Maybe it's because I love it when the show incorporates religion and mythology. But also it was a nice reminder of how old Cas really is. He's seen and experienced so much and it's easy to forget that.
- The eternal Tuesday of an autistic man. Something about this scene killed me. I don't know, maybe it was the simplicity of the whole thing and how Cas finds refuge in that. It says a lot about his character and why he enjoys being with the Winchesters.
- "Freedom is a length of rope. God wants you to hang yourself with it." This was such cynical comment. Cas has really gone a long way from the idealistic being he was before. And the comment seemed out of place, the second time I watched it, because wasn't he praying to God?
- Crowley was just amazing. I am astounded by how well he manipulates Cas. Just the fact that he uses the Sam and Dean card to convince Cas to join him...
- "Son of a bitch." Okay, I might have cried a little at this part. Or a lot. The way Dean said that was heartbreaking. Like if everything was crashing down around him. And the look on his face, goddamn.
- "We don't need to make another deal with the devil!" and "Where were you when I needed to hear it?" This was what sealed the dean/cas deal for me. The betrayal on Dean's face and Cas being on the verge of tears and just the atmosphere of the whole thing made me realized that there's something more between them. Maybe it's not sexual, but the love between them is tangible for the first time. The way Dean pleads with Cas shows how much he cares, 'cause if he didn't, he wouldn't have tried so hard to not not believe Sam and Bobby.
- "I didn't have a choice." It seems to be the central theme for the past few seasons: choice/free will. And the whole crew has made decisions, bad and good, and it was time for Cas to fall a little. It humanizes his character a great deal.
- The end scene was like a punch in the stomach. Between "I'm doing this for you...because of you" and "You are like a brother to me," I was dying. It all comes down to the fact that Cas needs Dean's approval more than anything and Dean is trying so hard to save him. There's so much that goes unsaid on both parts.
- "Am I doing the right thing? Give me a sign." In my opinion, Dean is Cas' sign. He's served as Cas' moral compass for a while and maybe that's how God is speaking to Cas. Dean is the "Righteous Man," despite all his flaws, and I think Cas has forgotten that. Also, this whole scene felt like the most painful break-up scene ever.
In conclusion, I think this episode tied all the unanswered questions together. It was necessary to see all of Cas' motivations. I loved Cas' ongoing struggle to figure out exactly how far he's fallen and how much farther he's willing to go. In all, the acting was excellent, the cinematography was gorgeous, and I was just blown away by the look into Cas' life. I know a lot of people were bitching about how Dean would have never cared so much about Cas, but really, how could he have not cared? It was the ultimate betrayal for Dean and something like that was bound to bring out all the repressed emotions in Dean. But yeah, this was probably not very coherent, so I'll stop rambling now.
Let me preface this by saying that before this episode I had only a vague sense of appreciation for Castiel and any supposed love between him and Dean. ('Cause apparently I'm blind and delusional.) Also, I was expecting this episode to be unwatchable because of the lack of Winchesters. So the fact that I loved it was really unexpected and just crazy. But really, this episode was a game-changer for me.
- I really enjoyed the flashbacks with the fish and the bible stories. Maybe it's because I love it when the show incorporates religion and mythology. But also it was a nice reminder of how old Cas really is. He's seen and experienced so much and it's easy to forget that.
- The eternal Tuesday of an autistic man. Something about this scene killed me. I don't know, maybe it was the simplicity of the whole thing and how Cas finds refuge in that. It says a lot about his character and why he enjoys being with the Winchesters.
- "Freedom is a length of rope. God wants you to hang yourself with it." This was such cynical comment. Cas has really gone a long way from the idealistic being he was before. And the comment seemed out of place, the second time I watched it, because wasn't he praying to God?
- Crowley was just amazing. I am astounded by how well he manipulates Cas. Just the fact that he uses the Sam and Dean card to convince Cas to join him...
- "Son of a bitch." Okay, I might have cried a little at this part. Or a lot. The way Dean said that was heartbreaking. Like if everything was crashing down around him. And the look on his face, goddamn.
- "We don't need to make another deal with the devil!" and "Where were you when I needed to hear it?" This was what sealed the dean/cas deal for me. The betrayal on Dean's face and Cas being on the verge of tears and just the atmosphere of the whole thing made me realized that there's something more between them. Maybe it's not sexual, but the love between them is tangible for the first time. The way Dean pleads with Cas shows how much he cares, 'cause if he didn't, he wouldn't have tried so hard to not not believe Sam and Bobby.
- "I didn't have a choice." It seems to be the central theme for the past few seasons: choice/free will. And the whole crew has made decisions, bad and good, and it was time for Cas to fall a little. It humanizes his character a great deal.
- The end scene was like a punch in the stomach. Between "I'm doing this for you...because of you" and "You are like a brother to me," I was dying. It all comes down to the fact that Cas needs Dean's approval more than anything and Dean is trying so hard to save him. There's so much that goes unsaid on both parts.
- "Am I doing the right thing? Give me a sign." In my opinion, Dean is Cas' sign. He's served as Cas' moral compass for a while and maybe that's how God is speaking to Cas. Dean is the "Righteous Man," despite all his flaws, and I think Cas has forgotten that. Also, this whole scene felt like the most painful break-up scene ever.
In conclusion, I think this episode tied all the unanswered questions together. It was necessary to see all of Cas' motivations. I loved Cas' ongoing struggle to figure out exactly how far he's fallen and how much farther he's willing to go. In all, the acting was excellent, the cinematography was gorgeous, and I was just blown away by the look into Cas' life. I know a lot of people were bitching about how Dean would have never cared so much about Cas, but really, how could he have not cared? It was the ultimate betrayal for Dean and something like that was bound to bring out all the repressed emotions in Dean. But yeah, this was probably not very coherent, so I'll stop rambling now.