sun in your eyes and on your own.....

[mackitmp06]

*sigh*how is everyone? i hope your all doing well. we´re almost to november before i know it it will be december and i will be on a bus to brazil and paraguay and uruguay and argentina and then i´ll be on a plane home!!!! dear God i cant wait. im itching to come home. every fiber of my being is burning with anxiety to come home. i love getting up on a new day because i know its one less day of having to wait.i cant help but wonder at times what would be of me if i had stayed at home.if i hadnt come here. in the end i think coming here was for the best. coming here protected me from myself. just one day until my party!!!!and two days until my birthday. this weekend kicks ass. this weekend will probably be the best time i have had while being here. that is if everything works out. i dont want to jinx everything. thank God i am finally outgoing or it never would have happened. i am stoked!!!! dee i miss you my friend. i wrote you an e-mail.just a bit longer.....*sigh*beautiful birmingham. i feel like i have finally grown here. i have realized so much. i cant even begin to put it into words. it is such an aweinspiring thing. its like being slapped really hard in the face by reality and life and your eyes can finally focus and all you can say is damn why didnt i see this before. but youre so grateful that you have finally taken a big step towards understanding the big picture and what is evolving in your life. i dont know i feel privileged to have this opportunity and i am so glad that i am finally at peace with me.
peace and resilience
macki