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Someone really sweet sent me this in an e-mail, and it describes how i'm feeling 100%.
In a few weeks...
A year has past and now we stand on the brink of returning to
a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything
yet nothing being the same. In a few weeks we will
reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears, say
goodbye to the people who were once just names on a sheet of
paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to
say goodbye to before we ever left. We will leave our best
friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to
places we came from and go back to the same things we did
last summer and every summer before. We will come into town
on that same familiar road, and even thought it has been
months, it will seem like only yesterday.
As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass
through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed
and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the
things that were most important to you a year ago don't seem
to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest
now, no one at home will completely understand. Who will you
call first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the
party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from
school will you keep in touch with? How long before you
actually start missing people bargaining in without calling
or knocking? Who will get breadsticks with you at three in
the morning? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room
by yourself, or how long before you realize your three best
friends aren't in the bed next to your room?
Then you realize how much things have changed, you realize
the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely
different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold
on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you
have to leave behind. In the matter of one day's traveling
time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best
friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messenger,
8:00 classes, and perpetual procrastination to a world that
will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we have lived
in it for nineteen years.
But it is different now... We now know the meaning of true
friendship. We know whom we have kept in touch with over the
past year and whom we hold dearest to our hearts. We've left
our high school worlds to deal with the real world. We have
had our hearts broken, we've fell in love, we've helped our
best friends through the toughest times of their lives,
something their even best friends at home couldn't be there
for. We've stayed up all night just to be there for a friend.
We've partied the night away, doing stupid stuff, but we were
always there for each other afterwards. There have been times
when we've felt so helpless being hours away from home when
we know our families or friends needed us most, and there are
times when we know we have made a difference.
A few weeks from now we will leave. A few weeks from now we
take down our pictures, and pack up our clothes. No more
going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave
our friends whose random emails and phone calls will bring us
to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories
and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our
return to this world.
A few weeks from now from now we will arrive. A few weeks
from now from now we will unpack our bags and have dinner
with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's
house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the
same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought
us laughter and tears over the past year. We will unpack old
memories and dreams that have been put away for the past
year.
A few weeks from now we will dig deep inside to find the
strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep
each other close. And somehow, in someway, we will find our
place between these two worlds.
In a few weeks.... are you ready?
In a few weeks...
A year has past and now we stand on the brink of returning to
a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything
yet nothing being the same. In a few weeks we will
reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears, say
goodbye to the people who were once just names on a sheet of
paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to
say goodbye to before we ever left. We will leave our best
friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to
places we came from and go back to the same things we did
last summer and every summer before. We will come into town
on that same familiar road, and even thought it has been
months, it will seem like only yesterday.
As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass
through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed
and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the
things that were most important to you a year ago don't seem
to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest
now, no one at home will completely understand. Who will you
call first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the
party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from
school will you keep in touch with? How long before you
actually start missing people bargaining in without calling
or knocking? Who will get breadsticks with you at three in
the morning? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room
by yourself, or how long before you realize your three best
friends aren't in the bed next to your room?
Then you realize how much things have changed, you realize
the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely
different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold
on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you
have to leave behind. In the matter of one day's traveling
time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best
friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messenger,
8:00 classes, and perpetual procrastination to a world that
will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we have lived
in it for nineteen years.
But it is different now... We now know the meaning of true
friendship. We know whom we have kept in touch with over the
past year and whom we hold dearest to our hearts. We've left
our high school worlds to deal with the real world. We have
had our hearts broken, we've fell in love, we've helped our
best friends through the toughest times of their lives,
something their even best friends at home couldn't be there
for. We've stayed up all night just to be there for a friend.
We've partied the night away, doing stupid stuff, but we were
always there for each other afterwards. There have been times
when we've felt so helpless being hours away from home when
we know our families or friends needed us most, and there are
times when we know we have made a difference.
A few weeks from now we will leave. A few weeks from now we
take down our pictures, and pack up our clothes. No more
going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave
our friends whose random emails and phone calls will bring us
to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories
and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our
return to this world.
A few weeks from now from now we will arrive. A few weeks
from now from now we will unpack our bags and have dinner
with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's
house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the
same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought
us laughter and tears over the past year. We will unpack old
memories and dreams that have been put away for the past
year.
A few weeks from now we will dig deep inside to find the
strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep
each other close. And somehow, in someway, we will find our
place between these two worlds.
In a few weeks.... are you ready?