utter pain and confusion...
For the last few days I have felt so incredibly confused. I have never felt like this and when I try to explain HOW I feel I get more confused. And I feel hurt, sick, sad. I am starting to feel better but it takes alot of effort and trying to not think about why I am confused. I am just living day to day, doing what feels right, but I often don't know what that is. When did everything get confusing and hard. I miss blissful ignorance of the real world. I miss alot of things. I hope I figure this life thing out and it only gets better. I am thankful for all the good things in my life and all the good things I had in my life, I have NO reason to complain.