Broken Heart
Last I heard from Dayle was August 15th, but I haven't talked to him since the 8th. I've e-mailed him and no replies even when I know for a fact that he's been online... *checking* 4 hours ago.
I got this sick feeling in my stomach that he's subtly breaking up with me.
Some of you might think that since it's an internet relationship, it shouldn't be a big deal. But it is to me.
I've been with Dayle longer than I've been with anyone and I really do love him.
He's the first thing I think about when I wake up, the last thing I think about when I go to sleep, and he's in my mind all day.
I just needed to get that out there. It's tough keeping these feelings inside. I've got no one around I can talk to openly about it, except my cousin Chris (my REAL cousin) whose got a girlfriend in Tennessee. Fortunate for him that he was able to meet her and it very unlikely that I'll be visiting Dayle anytime soon.
A while ago I posted this...
"I found one of my mom's old rings. It's a cheap Claddagh (look it up if you don't know what it means, but I'm pretty sure that most of the people who read this would). She bought it for no really reason since she's not Irish. I'm part Irish (on my dad's side obviously) and I've been wearing it ever since on my left hand with the crown pointed outward."
The ring is now on my right hand, but the crown is still pointed outward. I'm not giving up all hope yet.
*HUGS*
I got this sick feeling in my stomach that he's subtly breaking up with me.
Some of you might think that since it's an internet relationship, it shouldn't be a big deal. But it is to me.
I've been with Dayle longer than I've been with anyone and I really do love him.
He's the first thing I think about when I wake up, the last thing I think about when I go to sleep, and he's in my mind all day.
I just needed to get that out there. It's tough keeping these feelings inside. I've got no one around I can talk to openly about it, except my cousin Chris (my REAL cousin) whose got a girlfriend in Tennessee. Fortunate for him that he was able to meet her and it very unlikely that I'll be visiting Dayle anytime soon.
A while ago I posted this...
"I found one of my mom's old rings. It's a cheap Claddagh (look it up if you don't know what it means, but I'm pretty sure that most of the people who read this would). She bought it for no really reason since she's not Irish. I'm part Irish (on my dad's side obviously) and I've been wearing it ever since on my left hand with the crown pointed outward."
The ring is now on my right hand, but the crown is still pointed outward. I'm not giving up all hope yet.
*HUGS*