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Sometimes things should be kept quiet and to yourself but this time I feel like this needs to be said. I don't know why I let myself get so upset over this but I think it's because we've been friends for a while and you're a cool person and fun to be around(or so i thought). And even though we've grown apart I have still always considered you a good friend. What was said, was said and can't be taken back now. And yeah when i heard about it I got mad but when i took a step back and looked at the situation and knew that what was said wasn't true, I let it go. Then this whole Live journal thing came around and everything was made into this huge deal and there was tons of unnessasary drama.So again I tried to let it go and shrug it off but it kept bothering me and I think it's because we keep going back and forth with this but through other people. If there's anything I learned in highschool it's that people stay pissed and hold grudges when they let other people tell them gossip and don't confront their problems. I know i'm going off to college and leaving all this behind and that I won't ever have to deal with this crap again but I don't want to leave holding grudges with people I know I care about. And if anything ever happened to you I would never forgive myself for holding a grudge over something so ridiculous, so I want you to know that I'm not mad at you and I don't hate you, you are my friend and I care about you, I'm just upset and hurt. I've realized that there is so much more to life than what i'm worrying about. There are people out there dying of horrible diseases and kids being beaten by their parents, but here I am getting worked up about a silly thing that was said. I can hear, I can see, I can walk, I can talk and do so many things. I am living, breathing, and can feel. I am loved and have expirenced love and have two of the best parents anyone could ever ask for. And I have two wonderful sisters who I would do anything for. There is a point where people need to grow up and let go of the petty things and look at all of the things that are posotive in life. There is no chance in solving anything if you are not willing to change the way you feel about the situation and let it go. Life can be wonderful if you make it wonderful.