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it has been a tough week for the painting.
i am so tired that i have been turning my alarm completely off and oversleeping by hours.
that is not something i've EVER done! i've leapt out of bed at the sound of my alarm ever since kindergarten.
when i get to the studio, i am still sleepy and unfocused.
standing up on the table to paint is weird.
but i think i am starting to be able to 'see' it, which is cool. (i can see it for what it is, without the 'it's horrible' or 'it's perfect' blinders)
my prof wants me to, but i haven't been reading/researching because i am so beat at the end of the day.
seeing as how my days begin at 5am and i am standing/working/moving around from 7am to 9pm, i think this is acceptable. however, it is not getting things done. i feel as though i should take a day off and just sleep! but i love working on the painting and i really want to start the next one (the study for the next one, anyway) on monday.
i have been thinking a lot about what my painting is about and how other people are going read its meaning. i know it reads very landscape-y, but i want people to feel that it is about how our bodies begin to define us, how we sometimes define ourselves based on our bodies. (if i am thin/hard/tiny i am good/disciplined/strong vs if i am fat/soft/big i am bad/shameful/weak and how these lies so influence who we ARE in the world) then again, the meaning is only going to be that for me--everyone else will think their own stuff about it. i am okay with that
i will take more pictures tomorrow for interested parties.
i am so tired that i have been turning my alarm completely off and oversleeping by hours.
that is not something i've EVER done! i've leapt out of bed at the sound of my alarm ever since kindergarten.
when i get to the studio, i am still sleepy and unfocused.
standing up on the table to paint is weird.
but i think i am starting to be able to 'see' it, which is cool. (i can see it for what it is, without the 'it's horrible' or 'it's perfect' blinders)
my prof wants me to, but i haven't been reading/researching because i am so beat at the end of the day.
seeing as how my days begin at 5am and i am standing/working/moving around from 7am to 9pm, i think this is acceptable. however, it is not getting things done. i feel as though i should take a day off and just sleep! but i love working on the painting and i really want to start the next one (the study for the next one, anyway) on monday.
i have been thinking a lot about what my painting is about and how other people are going read its meaning. i know it reads very landscape-y, but i want people to feel that it is about how our bodies begin to define us, how we sometimes define ourselves based on our bodies. (if i am thin/hard/tiny i am good/disciplined/strong vs if i am fat/soft/big i am bad/shameful/weak and how these lies so influence who we ARE in the world) then again, the meaning is only going to be that for me--everyone else will think their own stuff about it. i am okay with that
i will take more pictures tomorrow for interested parties.