i'm under the assumption that i'm gonna be the one that's leaving you tonight.
i feel inadequate.
i don't like to make people feel bad or sad and somehow i find myself in situations sifting through a shattered heart and i am the asshole who smashed it. i just want what i want and i cannot help that i have high standards, not only for myself but for the people i allow into my life.
on paper it looks easy.
do what you're supposed to and stay out of trouble but caught in the action we often lose ourselves in the emotion of the fleeting moments. i'm at my wits end. i can feel this tsunami of emotions coming. it will be devastating. i know i am strong enough to hold back the flood but sometimes my tummybox feels too broken. enough is enough.
what have i done?
will you buy the ice cream truck if the popsicles are free?
so what about you and me?
what are we?
are we a "we".
i'm afraid to find these answers out.
what always seems so lovely, so innocent and true
too often finds the dark pleasures of depths not previously viewed.
i wish i knew the words to say that could make this predicament undo.
i wish i could stick to my guns everytime i drew.
but still i pick and choose between the ones that feel great
and the ones sticky like glue.
i'm tired of earthquakes
i more enjoy calm breaths and sweet tunes.
the land keeps shifting from under my feet
and my house of cards will be crumbling soon.
i'm stuck in a puddle of muddy muck muddle
and i'm starting to suffocate from the fumes.
i hate feeling desperate i don't like confused.
i wish we could just talk without ugly hues.
i taste like an onion all purple and ripe
but you'll never know until you take that first bite
and thats when you'll see this kool aid drink is not as it seems.
i hope my brain does not ruin this for me.
i think i already ruined it for myself.
jinxed and fucked from the beginning rush.
i am only good at impatiently waiting.
i live life in flash forward button surfing.
i like your smile and your touch but you have all the pretty luck.
i don't want to sit here like an awkward duck.
i'm hungry i'm thirsty but i'm too stubborn to drink.
i wish my brain would shut up i don't want to think
about all the mistakes that are yet to be made.
or the ones that are yet so cleverly plotting my demise.
it's time to cut the ties.
can't be afraid of these trying times.
learn from the rest and smile the best.
you don't want to lose yourself this time.
i don't like to make people feel bad or sad and somehow i find myself in situations sifting through a shattered heart and i am the asshole who smashed it. i just want what i want and i cannot help that i have high standards, not only for myself but for the people i allow into my life.
on paper it looks easy.
do what you're supposed to and stay out of trouble but caught in the action we often lose ourselves in the emotion of the fleeting moments. i'm at my wits end. i can feel this tsunami of emotions coming. it will be devastating. i know i am strong enough to hold back the flood but sometimes my tummybox feels too broken. enough is enough.
what have i done?
will you buy the ice cream truck if the popsicles are free?
so what about you and me?
what are we?
are we a "we".
i'm afraid to find these answers out.
what always seems so lovely, so innocent and true
too often finds the dark pleasures of depths not previously viewed.
i wish i knew the words to say that could make this predicament undo.
i wish i could stick to my guns everytime i drew.
but still i pick and choose between the ones that feel great
and the ones sticky like glue.
i'm tired of earthquakes
i more enjoy calm breaths and sweet tunes.
the land keeps shifting from under my feet
and my house of cards will be crumbling soon.
i'm stuck in a puddle of muddy muck muddle
and i'm starting to suffocate from the fumes.
i hate feeling desperate i don't like confused.
i wish we could just talk without ugly hues.
i taste like an onion all purple and ripe
but you'll never know until you take that first bite
and thats when you'll see this kool aid drink is not as it seems.
i hope my brain does not ruin this for me.
i think i already ruined it for myself.
jinxed and fucked from the beginning rush.
i am only good at impatiently waiting.
i live life in flash forward button surfing.
i like your smile and your touch but you have all the pretty luck.
i don't want to sit here like an awkward duck.
i'm hungry i'm thirsty but i'm too stubborn to drink.
i wish my brain would shut up i don't want to think
about all the mistakes that are yet to be made.
or the ones that are yet so cleverly plotting my demise.
it's time to cut the ties.
can't be afraid of these trying times.
learn from the rest and smile the best.
you don't want to lose yourself this time.