Sad So I Curse And I Ramble On

[machinethoughts]

A over developing sadness

as street cars rush by

I sit driving wondering

lights so bright but, dim

times of happiness wanting

delusion of grandure schemes

hiding in corners

of a hidden alley

crying

loosing grip with reality circle

hand me some more liquid savior

drink it down to swallow the pain

must lucious God or Godess

I bleed

Jesus nail me, I want your pain

so look in my eyes and please tell me the words

most patience grudge

riot speech told to me

I am put in a category of world structure of men in general

told to me I am diluted

fuck that

I am not a fucking lap dog

I am not your world outlook

I will not conform

as the soldiers keep walking

flowers are sprinkled on the graves of the forgotten

political agenda

to post fucking wars over fucking oil

pologies from bombs being droped on children

I scream my fucking society hymn

please

oh please God Take me

I don't want to live in this

what is my purpose here?

Faithless benger of the faith in the dark

between sheets

oh wait

theres nobody there

insanity smiles

oh so fake is this world