life seems to well...just be too much lately
So...wow...been a long time since I updated.
I miss all of my friends..let me start out by saying that. I love all of my friends too. I have had a rough couple of months. Life has been tossing things at me that keep piling up. Things are now starting to look up for the better, I think. This weekend was hell though. Someone I care about, dearly, is pissed at me. I know. I break out in tears just thinking about it. I was suppose to have an easy weekend. Well. Dave's boss is an asshole and we had to work on a saturday. That pushed all of my saturday things to sunday, which made me not get to do teh thing I ultimately had planned. To spend time with Lindsey. I was really looking forward to it to, please, friend, dont' think I wasn't. I am sorry I didn't call, I got caught up in what was going on here..(not fun)...and I also didn't want to dissapoint you. I screwed up and I know it.
Back to it. I have tried really hard lately to balance everything, but everytime I get everything "stable" something else goes wrong. I hate growing up. I actually feel like a responsible adult and it sucks. It sucks not being able to blow things off and just go see my friends and drink and have a good time. I feel like I have control, but then again, I don't. I don't know if I wrote this before, but I did get a 4.0 last semester and to be honest, I would rather have all B's if it meant seeing my friends more, but if I am not doing school work I am trying to work to pay my debt off, but not just mine Dave's as well. I know it is his debt, but I think that upon marrying him, it is mine as well. I would much rather us both be out of debt, except for a car and house, when we are married than us have to struggle. I am happy helping him, but it gets tought at times. The one thing that breaks most marriages up is money and I won't let that happen. I would rather struggle now with money and work together with him so I know we can do it when we are married. We are doing terrific at it, by the way. We pick each other up when it seems to get really bad and we appreciate each other so much.
My other problem has been his family. Now he knows this, so I am not talking about them behind his back. They fit in the 1800's. I just found out now that they didn't want him to date me at first because my parents were divorced and my dad used to abuse me. wow. They thought I was going to turn out to be a rebel of some sort just because I had a non omish family life. wtf. That can sum up his familiy right there.
Another thing has been my business. I have struggled with equipment issues, projects being deleted, and not to mention using Dave's computer at his house with his family. I am terribly sorry to CJ for not getting his wedding done sooner. All I have to do now is Burn the DVDs and I just found out I can't do that until this coming week. :( :( :( I thought I would get it done last week and then I had issues with compatibility with programs. Thank God I will have all of my equipment for MY OWN studio this week!!!!!! That is a happy note by the way. Now it will only take me two to three days to finish instead of months. It is also a plus for school. School is getting harder and harder and now I will have the programs I need to complete everything. YAYAYAYAYA!
Well, I better get some work done. Again, I am terribly sorry to all of my friends for the absence of my presence lately. Just trying to be a responisible adult. :( :( but I am a bad friend at the same time and that sucks.)
I miss all of my friends..let me start out by saying that. I love all of my friends too. I have had a rough couple of months. Life has been tossing things at me that keep piling up. Things are now starting to look up for the better, I think. This weekend was hell though. Someone I care about, dearly, is pissed at me. I know. I break out in tears just thinking about it. I was suppose to have an easy weekend. Well. Dave's boss is an asshole and we had to work on a saturday. That pushed all of my saturday things to sunday, which made me not get to do teh thing I ultimately had planned. To spend time with Lindsey. I was really looking forward to it to, please, friend, dont' think I wasn't. I am sorry I didn't call, I got caught up in what was going on here..(not fun)...and I also didn't want to dissapoint you. I screwed up and I know it.
Back to it. I have tried really hard lately to balance everything, but everytime I get everything "stable" something else goes wrong. I hate growing up. I actually feel like a responsible adult and it sucks. It sucks not being able to blow things off and just go see my friends and drink and have a good time. I feel like I have control, but then again, I don't. I don't know if I wrote this before, but I did get a 4.0 last semester and to be honest, I would rather have all B's if it meant seeing my friends more, but if I am not doing school work I am trying to work to pay my debt off, but not just mine Dave's as well. I know it is his debt, but I think that upon marrying him, it is mine as well. I would much rather us both be out of debt, except for a car and house, when we are married than us have to struggle. I am happy helping him, but it gets tought at times. The one thing that breaks most marriages up is money and I won't let that happen. I would rather struggle now with money and work together with him so I know we can do it when we are married. We are doing terrific at it, by the way. We pick each other up when it seems to get really bad and we appreciate each other so much.
My other problem has been his family. Now he knows this, so I am not talking about them behind his back. They fit in the 1800's. I just found out now that they didn't want him to date me at first because my parents were divorced and my dad used to abuse me. wow. They thought I was going to turn out to be a rebel of some sort just because I had a non omish family life. wtf. That can sum up his familiy right there.
Another thing has been my business. I have struggled with equipment issues, projects being deleted, and not to mention using Dave's computer at his house with his family. I am terribly sorry to CJ for not getting his wedding done sooner. All I have to do now is Burn the DVDs and I just found out I can't do that until this coming week. :( :( :( I thought I would get it done last week and then I had issues with compatibility with programs. Thank God I will have all of my equipment for MY OWN studio this week!!!!!! That is a happy note by the way. Now it will only take me two to three days to finish instead of months. It is also a plus for school. School is getting harder and harder and now I will have the programs I need to complete everything. YAYAYAYAYA!
Well, I better get some work done. Again, I am terribly sorry to all of my friends for the absence of my presence lately. Just trying to be a responisible adult. :( :( but I am a bad friend at the same time and that sucks.)