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Yeah so, I just got my teeth pulled out. I took my journal down for a while because I didn't have much to write and whatever I did I didnt, and still dont, feel like posting for everyone to see. I haven't been seeing many people lately, kind of sucks, although, and i'm not saying anything definate, Joey and I are going to try'n work out an arrangement at my house for the start of the school year and see where it goes from there. I miss a lot of you guys, especially the ones that live over in charlton that I havent seen for a while like Rhi, Em, Michele, Toledo. I don't know how likely the chances are of it happening but I would like for us to all get together sometime real soon before school starts.
My last day at Tom's paint was yesterday. That guy really helped me out and I'm really grateful to him for letting me make some money when no one would hire me. Speaking of which, Barnes & Noble just sent me a letter yesterday informing me that they "Enjoyed meeting with me" and "know that I would have also done a great job for Barnes & Noble" but that they already chose someone that will be "starting within the next few weeks. So, that sucks.
Needless to say this week hasn't been the best week of my life - But dwelling on it isn't going to make it any better. There was a girl who had to do what she felt needed to be done and I'm not bitter towards her in the least. But I want her to know that we are going be close friends no matter what happens because i can't let her slip out of my life. So, we're going to have some great times in the future, you betta believe it ;)
Duck has officially moved into college and is attending it as I am writing this. I miss her being right down the street to hang out with but having a car helps and i dont think i've ever seen her happier which makes me happy, it really does. I dont know how much it really matters though because if i ever have the urge to see her i know i can just hop in my car, or get a ride to clark. So far I've taken her out to breakfast for her birthday and taken her out to lunch... and she's only been there for what, 3/4 days? Also, If i end up going to worcester state - which I don't know for sure yet because I'm still looking at colleges - I'll be right down the road(s) from her.
I've come to realize that people only drift apart if you let them. People go away, far away sometimes, and people find more friends, but what it comes down to mainly is not dwelling on the past because you can never relive it, ever. If you keep looking for ways to relive what you had or have right now later on, you're only going to miss great opportunities to have great things happen to you and in the process maybe even grow closer to friends than you've ever imagined. I am choosing to make my future as good as possible and live the in the present as much as possible. Everything is a choice, everything, the problem is that not many people can see all of their choices or choose the best one.
"no one ever get's to where they're going looking only through the rearview mirror"
(unless you're driving backwards, but then you're fucked up)
Senior year is going to have it's ups and downs, it's good times and it's bad's. And the end of it is only going to be harder if, when we all grow closer to eachother because we can't turn our backs on the fact that we're all going somewhere and they aren't all going to be the same places as eachother. The reality of it is is that phone calls, instant messages, and letters are only filler and can't be what relationships amongst people are founded on, all of these things are far to impersonal and only mask people's true selves. If you suddenly ask yourself someday "when did we all start to grow apart", it's when you stopped being honest with eachother and stopped caring about seeing one another because there were/are too many obstacles in your way preventing you from doing so - just so you know, that excuse is bullshit. It may be hard, it will be hard, but if people care about eachother as much as they say they do - as much as I know I do - we'll, and I'll make sure to make the effort to see everyone. Just because you grow up doesn't mean you have to grow apart.
I have one thing else to say befor I finish, and this is to any reader of this with big dreams... or litte ones. THIS IS THE TIME TO SETUP YOUR FUTURE THE WAY YOU WANT IT, YOU WILL NOT EVER GET ANOTHER CHANCE TO FOCUS ON YOUR DREAMS AS MUCH AS YOU CAN NOW SO DONT PUSSY OUT AND BE PERSISTANT WITH THEM.
My last day at Tom's paint was yesterday. That guy really helped me out and I'm really grateful to him for letting me make some money when no one would hire me. Speaking of which, Barnes & Noble just sent me a letter yesterday informing me that they "Enjoyed meeting with me" and "know that I would have also done a great job for Barnes & Noble" but that they already chose someone that will be "starting within the next few weeks. So, that sucks.
Needless to say this week hasn't been the best week of my life - But dwelling on it isn't going to make it any better. There was a girl who had to do what she felt needed to be done and I'm not bitter towards her in the least. But I want her to know that we are going be close friends no matter what happens because i can't let her slip out of my life. So, we're going to have some great times in the future, you betta believe it ;)
Duck has officially moved into college and is attending it as I am writing this. I miss her being right down the street to hang out with but having a car helps and i dont think i've ever seen her happier which makes me happy, it really does. I dont know how much it really matters though because if i ever have the urge to see her i know i can just hop in my car, or get a ride to clark. So far I've taken her out to breakfast for her birthday and taken her out to lunch... and she's only been there for what, 3/4 days? Also, If i end up going to worcester state - which I don't know for sure yet because I'm still looking at colleges - I'll be right down the road(s) from her.
I've come to realize that people only drift apart if you let them. People go away, far away sometimes, and people find more friends, but what it comes down to mainly is not dwelling on the past because you can never relive it, ever. If you keep looking for ways to relive what you had or have right now later on, you're only going to miss great opportunities to have great things happen to you and in the process maybe even grow closer to friends than you've ever imagined. I am choosing to make my future as good as possible and live the in the present as much as possible. Everything is a choice, everything, the problem is that not many people can see all of their choices or choose the best one.
"no one ever get's to where they're going looking only through the rearview mirror"
(unless you're driving backwards, but then you're fucked up)
Senior year is going to have it's ups and downs, it's good times and it's bad's. And the end of it is only going to be harder if, when we all grow closer to eachother because we can't turn our backs on the fact that we're all going somewhere and they aren't all going to be the same places as eachother. The reality of it is is that phone calls, instant messages, and letters are only filler and can't be what relationships amongst people are founded on, all of these things are far to impersonal and only mask people's true selves. If you suddenly ask yourself someday "when did we all start to grow apart", it's when you stopped being honest with eachother and stopped caring about seeing one another because there were/are too many obstacles in your way preventing you from doing so - just so you know, that excuse is bullshit. It may be hard, it will be hard, but if people care about eachother as much as they say they do - as much as I know I do - we'll, and I'll make sure to make the effort to see everyone. Just because you grow up doesn't mean you have to grow apart.
I have one thing else to say befor I finish, and this is to any reader of this with big dreams... or litte ones. THIS IS THE TIME TO SETUP YOUR FUTURE THE WAY YOU WANT IT, YOU WILL NOT EVER GET ANOTHER CHANCE TO FOCUS ON YOUR DREAMS AS MUCH AS YOU CAN NOW SO DONT PUSSY OUT AND BE PERSISTANT WITH THEM.