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Love
I rarely write about how much I love my husband. A few of you remember that he and I were separated about 2 years ago for nine months. That was the worst time of my life. I knew how much I loved him and I knew deep in my heart that we were supposed to be together, but I could not prove it to him. But it was something he needed to work out on his own. He came home finally, and I think things are good between us, despite the fact that I let my stress from work boil over into our marriage sometimes. But I do love him and I am thankful for all the things he does for me. He makes me laugh, he's sweet and he keeps me on my toes with surprises and his need for spontaniety.
What brought this up was me listening to Christmas music (I don't know what possessed me, unless it was the fact that we're going to light up night tonite...). And they played Jim Brickman's The Gift. The lyrics can be found here: http://www.lyricsdownload.com/jim-brickman-the-gift-lyrics.html. But the lyrics that grab me every time I hear them are these ones:
watching as you softly sleep
what i'd give if i could keep
just this moment
if only time stood still
Now, the moment I figured out I was in love with my husband was when we were sitting in his college dorm room and The Gift came on. Not being a Colin Raye fan, I didn't recognize the song. But when I heard that verse, I almost started to cry because it reminded me of my ex-fiance. Well, I don't remember exactly what Petey did at that moment, but it was something comforting and I think in that moment, I realized this was the man I could spend the rest of my life with. Every time I hear that song, I remember that moment. I don't remember too much else about that time frame, except for a few snippets here and there of special moments, but that moment stands out clear to me.
But, I am thankful that he is in my life and I wouldn't change a minute of our relationship. Okay, maybe the nine months, but I think those were important to our marriage. It helped me to realize I didn't appreciate him enough. And every now and then, I know I don't show it to him as much as I should and I know I don't. I'm sorry are the three hardest words in the English language. The ability to admit when someone is wrong, and I am horrible at admitting it. Especially to him. But, I try to work on it and know some day it will come easier. (okay, probably not, but ya never know).
But Petey is a special person and I am thankful that he is there to support me and has stuck by me, and will always be in my life, and for that, I am very thankful. He is in my heart and I love him very much.
I rarely write about how much I love my husband. A few of you remember that he and I were separated about 2 years ago for nine months. That was the worst time of my life. I knew how much I loved him and I knew deep in my heart that we were supposed to be together, but I could not prove it to him. But it was something he needed to work out on his own. He came home finally, and I think things are good between us, despite the fact that I let my stress from work boil over into our marriage sometimes. But I do love him and I am thankful for all the things he does for me. He makes me laugh, he's sweet and he keeps me on my toes with surprises and his need for spontaniety.
What brought this up was me listening to Christmas music (I don't know what possessed me, unless it was the fact that we're going to light up night tonite...). And they played Jim Brickman's The Gift. The lyrics can be found here: http://www.lyricsdownload.com/jim-brickman-the-gift-lyrics.html. But the lyrics that grab me every time I hear them are these ones:
watching as you softly sleep
what i'd give if i could keep
just this moment
if only time stood still
Now, the moment I figured out I was in love with my husband was when we were sitting in his college dorm room and The Gift came on. Not being a Colin Raye fan, I didn't recognize the song. But when I heard that verse, I almost started to cry because it reminded me of my ex-fiance. Well, I don't remember exactly what Petey did at that moment, but it was something comforting and I think in that moment, I realized this was the man I could spend the rest of my life with. Every time I hear that song, I remember that moment. I don't remember too much else about that time frame, except for a few snippets here and there of special moments, but that moment stands out clear to me.
But, I am thankful that he is in my life and I wouldn't change a minute of our relationship. Okay, maybe the nine months, but I think those were important to our marriage. It helped me to realize I didn't appreciate him enough. And every now and then, I know I don't show it to him as much as I should and I know I don't. I'm sorry are the three hardest words in the English language. The ability to admit when someone is wrong, and I am horrible at admitting it. Especially to him. But, I try to work on it and know some day it will come easier. (okay, probably not, but ya never know).
But Petey is a special person and I am thankful that he is there to support me and has stuck by me, and will always be in my life, and for that, I am very thankful. He is in my heart and I love him very much.