unbelievable....
How can someone that you feel so close to be having so many emotional difficulties that you don't know about? I try to be there for Ryan, but just as he tells his journal, he pushes people away. I want him to know that I love him and I will always be here for him if he needs me and I don't think he knows that. If what he needs is to go to New York, then "God bless" but we will all miss him here. He once told me that he liked me, at the time I didn't know how to take it, but now I take it with great respect and adoration. Him being able to tell me something so personal makes me feel closer to him than I think I ever had before, he confided in me. I really appreciate that. I love him the way that he is, but mostly for the person that he WILL be... he will accomplish his goals... he's that determined... he will be on Broadway. All I can hope is that he remembers me one day, and remembers that I do love him...