Jul 12, 2005 10:23
you're twenty but you feel like your fifteen
your live journal buddy list has more "friends" than "friend of"
you use your "friend of" list to judge how many friends you have
you then realize that most of these people don't even talk to you
you then realize that many people you call friends aren't friends
you think of your "friend" who forgot your birthday, your "friend" who called you a slut, your "friend" who is too concerned with making new "friends" to care about her "best friend"
you feel stupid for not realizing this years ago, when you were actually fifteen
you start to think that maybe friendship is overrated, and you should just hang out with your granny instead...maybe your cat...maybe just sit around with deceased poets all day