1st blog posted on Myspace
Well it certainly seems to be raining shit on Kelly Byrne this glorious evening. It's as if the skies today opened up and started to pour on me and only me. I sit here in a cluttered room which closely resembles the emotion i am feeling; disheveled, unorganized, and starving for a clean sweep. As it gets darker i feel more at home, at least. I'm dressed in black and am beginning to feel invisible even to myself. I think i need to just disappear. Maybe if i lay down on the carpet i'll eventually meld into it.
Something that makes me happy lately: My hair has finally reached a pinnacle. It has finally grown long enough for me to twirl and twirl and twirl. What's more is that it can finally reach my upper lip. It's a soothing passtime to twirl and polish a lock with my fingertips just enough so that it glides across my lips. I can do it all day long. When i was a kid i used to have a teddy bear named Timmy. I used to suck my thumb and rub his tag across my upper lip when i fell asleep. I suppose old habits never die.
Memory is a cruel form of torture. However, it's probably not the memory that hurts, it's the longing to relive. There are a number of things i would do differently if i had the chance. Maybe time travel could actually be a reality. Let's think about what we would need to travel in time. Some sort of device that works against it. What works against time? Einstein think's velocity has something to do with it, but that only works if you want to travel forward. I think the only way to travel back in time would be to wait. Think about it, if the universe is infinite, then that means there are infinite possibilies. The posibility of my exact life replaying again somewhere in this universe or another universe is a sure thing. It may not happen until an infinite number of years from now, but when it does i'll be ready. I look forward to that time. I swear i'll make better choices.
Maybe it won't be an infinite number of years from now. Some say that the universe is still expanding. Once it reaches a certain mass it will collapse into its own gravity and there will be another big bang. Maybe that's when it will start all over exactly as it was before. There is also the possibility that entropy is preset. Sure it may be chaotic when the observer looks at it now, but if this has all happened before then nothing is chaotic. There is order and balance no matter how chaotic it may seem. There may be a possibility that all of this has happened before in the universe previous to ours. I wonder if i was telling myself to do things differently then. I wonder if i succeeded. My spirit ancestors are probably wondering why i never get it right. That's probably why i am feeling so miserable today. The skies have opened up and my spirit ancestors are casting their disgrace upon me. If reincarnation exists come back as a bird, you moron!
Embrace it, Kelly. Learn from your mistakes.
PS: MY NEW RELIGION IS INFINITISM
Something that makes me happy lately: My hair has finally reached a pinnacle. It has finally grown long enough for me to twirl and twirl and twirl. What's more is that it can finally reach my upper lip. It's a soothing passtime to twirl and polish a lock with my fingertips just enough so that it glides across my lips. I can do it all day long. When i was a kid i used to have a teddy bear named Timmy. I used to suck my thumb and rub his tag across my upper lip when i fell asleep. I suppose old habits never die.
Memory is a cruel form of torture. However, it's probably not the memory that hurts, it's the longing to relive. There are a number of things i would do differently if i had the chance. Maybe time travel could actually be a reality. Let's think about what we would need to travel in time. Some sort of device that works against it. What works against time? Einstein think's velocity has something to do with it, but that only works if you want to travel forward. I think the only way to travel back in time would be to wait. Think about it, if the universe is infinite, then that means there are infinite possibilies. The posibility of my exact life replaying again somewhere in this universe or another universe is a sure thing. It may not happen until an infinite number of years from now, but when it does i'll be ready. I look forward to that time. I swear i'll make better choices.
Maybe it won't be an infinite number of years from now. Some say that the universe is still expanding. Once it reaches a certain mass it will collapse into its own gravity and there will be another big bang. Maybe that's when it will start all over exactly as it was before. There is also the possibility that entropy is preset. Sure it may be chaotic when the observer looks at it now, but if this has all happened before then nothing is chaotic. There is order and balance no matter how chaotic it may seem. There may be a possibility that all of this has happened before in the universe previous to ours. I wonder if i was telling myself to do things differently then. I wonder if i succeeded. My spirit ancestors are probably wondering why i never get it right. That's probably why i am feeling so miserable today. The skies have opened up and my spirit ancestors are casting their disgrace upon me. If reincarnation exists come back as a bird, you moron!
Embrace it, Kelly. Learn from your mistakes.
PS: MY NEW RELIGION IS INFINITISM