Nothing much
Well it has been one hell of a week. The pary was extremely fun. I can't wait till we can all do it again. Everything around me seems to be tumbling into nothingness. Not sure if that's a word - but it is now damnit. All I know is that I spend far too much time thinging about everyone but me. I think that I have finally discovered something. People are going to do what they want whether you want them to or not. Me freaking out and trying to get my point across isn't going to do anything but make things worse. My opinion on things seems to be shit. It just hurts everyone - which is the exact opposite of what I'm trying to do. Hopefully I will be able to remember this in the future. I just need to try not to give a shit about anything apparently. Along those same lines I really need to work on the self-esteem thing. I know that I have issues. As does everyone else. But apparemtly recently I have become someone I never want to be. It was brought to my attention quite abruptly - and it was like a steel-toed boot to the face. Hopefully I can work on this - or things might just start going downhill even faster than they were. Well this has suddenly become very depressing so I think I'm gonna go now. More later.