JAWED EPIPHANY

[maca_jew]

Jawed Epiphany

prying my jaw loose
for just a hint of relief
from all the shit i go through
it is far beyond belief

i can't stand this life
the shit i have to deal with
and every goddamn damn sign
reminding me that i'm not dead

i hate putting up with
knowing who i am
that i'm never good enough
but hey, it's all part of the plan

am i the antikrist?
god i hope so
i'm shaking too much right now
to give a fuck either way

i let my jaw hang
as i stare in disbelief
i'm nowhere near perfect
guess that will never be me

i'll never accept it
i guess no one else will either
who could love someone so vile
so goddamn fucked up

i still have the scars to prove it
some new, some old
and frustration now for who i am
is someone who cannot let go

so let me tap on some issues
that i've bottled up inside
like how i hate the world
and what goes on in my life

every day is a constant struggle
trying to fit in
i'm sure some of you like me
hate that some of you never will

i know this because i try
i run in circles and cry
but you look straight ahead
and tell me pitiful lies

"no erin you're cool,
sure we can be buds"
tell the goddamn truth
if maybe just this once

i'll be honest with you
if you will with me
at least i say when im sick of your shit
so why can't you return the favor?

and i really doubt if anyone
has ever wanted you as bad as i
yeah ignore me everytime
i fucking try to say hi

oh but wait!
there might be hope yet!
every time you're horny
you're my BEST FRIEND!

ha! what cock and balls you have
i tear my skin for you
you don't care
no not you, too tough for truth

go fuck yourself
fuck off
so i can close my jaw tight
i don't care anymore

dec. 15, 2008