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so as i'm sitting here watching the last few moments of degrassi, i realize 1. how sometimes pathetic my life is, and 2. how long it's been since i've updated. not that there's anything terribly juicy that you all just absolutely must know about... but hey, somebody might care.
i guess the most noteworthy thing that's happened since last i posted was my family reunion in atl. family reunions are always kind of weird for me... there's like this weird balance between my feeling like a complete outsider in my (extended) family and desperately wanting to be accepted by them. like, i dunno, i guess it's normal for a kid to want their family to love them. but i want mine to like me. to think i'm cool i guess. sad, yes, but also true. it's just strange. i listen to music they'd never dream of hearing, i watch tv shows that they think are weird, i'm into movies that are way to indie for their taste. and i guess it doesn't help that we've been transplanted to mansfield, but we just weren't that super close either. and we have like, strange pseudo-factions. nobody does it in purpose, but there were just groups of kids that were raised together, so i suppose it's natural. whatev.
the highlight of the trip, however, was obviously getting to see jeff. and i guess there was a heightened sense of... importance? since it was his birthday. and apparently birthdays are beyond unimportant in his family. as in, almost not acknowledged. it's kind of sad. because even if every birthday isn't perfect (because i'm pretty sure none of them are), i know that on my birthday i'll at least have a dinner with my dysfunctional family. which, if nothing else, is bound to have some entertaining moments. but i digress. so jeff has neither traditions nor expectations on the day of his birth, so i was glad that i could be there on his birthday. even though i got him a couple of gifts, i genuinely felt like he was more glad that i could be there with him than the fact that i bought him some nice stuff. maybe that's me and my rose-colored lenses, but hey. a little delusion never hurt nobody. anyways, it was really good to just be able to laze around with him all day, not doing anything special. in fact, i dare say that what we did was highly un-special. but we both thoroughly enjoyed ourselves.
later that night, though, was far more interesting.
so i guess from what i said earlier it'd be pretty hard to understand how big a deal my family reunions are. i mean, when i say reunion, i'm not talkin 20 or 30 aunts, uncles, and cousins. i'm talking 250-300 people from as far back in a family tree as anybody can trace. needless to say, it's HUGE. and the highlight of this gargantuan event is the banquet held on saturday night. while saturday also happened to be jeff's birthday, he graciously agreed to join me on this... occasion. well anyway, so jeff comes with me, and while i was expecting the 5th degree like none other, it really wasn't that bad. i mean, he felt highly uncomfortable, but that's to be expected i suppose. anyways, we ended up having a really good time, and i'm so glad i got to see him.
i'm boring myself with this post, so i'll just sum up the rest.
since my last post i also went to austin. i got to see my houston babies (sans amanda) and it was incredible. i stayed with jon, we all drank too much, and i got to see the most ADORABLE puppies i've ever laid eyes on. seriously, half lab, half boxer and AMAZING. sisters ziggy and marley. they are incredible.
i miss having friends around.
i miss jeff being around.
i head back to stl on the 17th. hate st. louis, but love the people at school.
my family is psychotic.
i'm (probably) getting a pontiac vibe. it's pretty and blue and i'm so excited. i could have it as soon as tomorrow (eek!) but it'll probably be later in the week. but i could care less, i'm so effing glad that i'll have a car. and grateful. and i want to take care of it and not have any wrecks. and just a tid-bit: i suck at parking. alot. like, i just can't guide the car into the spot (easily). it's very, very sad.
the end.
i guess the most noteworthy thing that's happened since last i posted was my family reunion in atl. family reunions are always kind of weird for me... there's like this weird balance between my feeling like a complete outsider in my (extended) family and desperately wanting to be accepted by them. like, i dunno, i guess it's normal for a kid to want their family to love them. but i want mine to like me. to think i'm cool i guess. sad, yes, but also true. it's just strange. i listen to music they'd never dream of hearing, i watch tv shows that they think are weird, i'm into movies that are way to indie for their taste. and i guess it doesn't help that we've been transplanted to mansfield, but we just weren't that super close either. and we have like, strange pseudo-factions. nobody does it in purpose, but there were just groups of kids that were raised together, so i suppose it's natural. whatev.
the highlight of the trip, however, was obviously getting to see jeff. and i guess there was a heightened sense of... importance? since it was his birthday. and apparently birthdays are beyond unimportant in his family. as in, almost not acknowledged. it's kind of sad. because even if every birthday isn't perfect (because i'm pretty sure none of them are), i know that on my birthday i'll at least have a dinner with my dysfunctional family. which, if nothing else, is bound to have some entertaining moments. but i digress. so jeff has neither traditions nor expectations on the day of his birth, so i was glad that i could be there on his birthday. even though i got him a couple of gifts, i genuinely felt like he was more glad that i could be there with him than the fact that i bought him some nice stuff. maybe that's me and my rose-colored lenses, but hey. a little delusion never hurt nobody. anyways, it was really good to just be able to laze around with him all day, not doing anything special. in fact, i dare say that what we did was highly un-special. but we both thoroughly enjoyed ourselves.
later that night, though, was far more interesting.
so i guess from what i said earlier it'd be pretty hard to understand how big a deal my family reunions are. i mean, when i say reunion, i'm not talkin 20 or 30 aunts, uncles, and cousins. i'm talking 250-300 people from as far back in a family tree as anybody can trace. needless to say, it's HUGE. and the highlight of this gargantuan event is the banquet held on saturday night. while saturday also happened to be jeff's birthday, he graciously agreed to join me on this... occasion. well anyway, so jeff comes with me, and while i was expecting the 5th degree like none other, it really wasn't that bad. i mean, he felt highly uncomfortable, but that's to be expected i suppose. anyways, we ended up having a really good time, and i'm so glad i got to see him.
i'm boring myself with this post, so i'll just sum up the rest.
since my last post i also went to austin. i got to see my houston babies (sans amanda) and it was incredible. i stayed with jon, we all drank too much, and i got to see the most ADORABLE puppies i've ever laid eyes on. seriously, half lab, half boxer and AMAZING. sisters ziggy and marley. they are incredible.
i miss having friends around.
i miss jeff being around.
i head back to stl on the 17th. hate st. louis, but love the people at school.
my family is psychotic.
i'm (probably) getting a pontiac vibe. it's pretty and blue and i'm so excited. i could have it as soon as tomorrow (eek!) but it'll probably be later in the week. but i could care less, i'm so effing glad that i'll have a car. and grateful. and i want to take care of it and not have any wrecks. and just a tid-bit: i suck at parking. alot. like, i just can't guide the car into the spot (easily). it's very, very sad.
the end.