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I feel very pointless. I want to get fucked up. I havent for so long, cuz i told myself that i am gonna fuck up my goals if i continue along this path. I eventually stopped, and im like 4 months sober. Im proud of myself. but then i keep myeslf at home so that i wont drink and get high, it makes me feel lonely. Graduation seems like 50 billions years away, even though its like 4 months away. i just cant take it. I feel very trapped in my own world, and that i cant get out, cuz of things that i cannot do because of this thing called HIGH SCHOOL.
My cat is still missing. its been 2 weeks. i miss her presence in this house. I think someone found her and wont give her back to us. we put out hella signs. and there is no way that no one saw it. My mom really misses her. She wants to get another one. I understand. She feels empty with out her. I felt that way when toby died. It makes me sad.
3 more days till my birthday. yay, i am not excited for it. its all about gettin some tequila, thats what im excited for. ok im done. buh bye.
My cat is still missing. its been 2 weeks. i miss her presence in this house. I think someone found her and wont give her back to us. we put out hella signs. and there is no way that no one saw it. My mom really misses her. She wants to get another one. I understand. She feels empty with out her. I felt that way when toby died. It makes me sad.
3 more days till my birthday. yay, i am not excited for it. its all about gettin some tequila, thats what im excited for. ok im done. buh bye.