drab...
um.. i don't have a lot of time to write right now... midquarters are this week.. school is stressful, and the person who helps me maintain my sanity (if that's possible..) is currently escaping life in the middle of the desert. easter was ok.. we spilt colors everywhere. dani and i are arguing.. the furnace went out and won't be fixed until... about the end of the week.. so my feet are cold :P. the one good thing about this week is that we finished the backyard yay! hannah and rasp stole the woooooofulness :O.... ass minkies.. ha.. jp. i have ribble today :D... he always signs my passes to get me out of class.. apparently a coupls of my friends are harming themselves. my parents are hounding me over colleges right now... i figured out what i want to do with my life ok? i mean choosing where i want to be.. who i want to be for the next four years of my life is so not as much fun as i had anticipated. katie advised me not to take the business manager possition next year, she said that if she could redo everything over.. she wouldn't choose to do it.. why i'm unsure. shee orders me around to do all the work.. eh.. oh well, seniors. i have to rewrite the first section of my english paper.. it was only 6 pages, but i was content with what i had and unlike most.. once i write something.. i can't remember it.. so i have to start from scratch, i also need to do section two by thursday, but i can't focus on anything lately. mom and dad have been fighting a lot lately... i think they'll be divorced in about 3 years.. i mean i hope they don't... but it feels inevitable. brianna is SO spoiled.. she gets the rest of us screamed at all the time.... siblings. um.. i'm going to be a TA for mrs.hormann next year.. from 1:30 until 3:30 every day... it should be fun. i can't wait to be a teacher. to grow up and.. i don't know.. mean something to someone. i have gym in 15 minutes... i feel like a run, but not lifting. i don't like how everyone seems to think i'm this little girl.. that they need to protect.. this innocent..naive little person. i don't know.. maybe it's true. but the way people just laugh and give me a hug.. or ask for my help all the time.. i know being thought of as a helpful person isn't bad.. and that there are a lot worse things to be said about someone.. but if i have to hear how cute and sweet i am another time i think i'll vanish. we were in math the other morning.. and ali said.. gosh collen you're going to be thebest kindergarten teacher.. you're just so cute and sweet. blah.. maybe i'm just tired of me... of who i'm supposed to be...