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The things that have inspired me and filled me with joy or saddness this year:
1. Having someone who felt the same way about me as i did him
2. playing loud music in the car while driving at high speed visiting people and going places with greg
3. Leaving my heart on my sleave for too long and someone taking advantage of it
4. Losing someone special but benefiting from the loss of abuse also
5. Losing someone to someone else after a promise
6. playing with fire, when the fire is someone elses
7. finding a sister
8. losing a friend
9. finding new music influences and getting attatched to them
10. Meeting someone who teaches you more about the world and yourself than you have ever learnt before
11. Holiday flings that feel more than what it is.
12. Being told about yourself and whats to come for you
13. Finding out that it was never going to happen, used again
14. Finding out that you are more happier than upset about someone going and getting engaged
15. Being constantly around friends even in the darkest of days
16. Trying new things that blow your mind
17. Making plans for moving out.
18. A long distance leaver
19. Frequent phonecalls from that long distance leaver
20. Realising the long distance leaver is being played around back home
21. Feeling disappointment in two friends actions in matter that sits too close to home for some
22. Meeting new people from various locations and having amazing conversations.
23. Gaining respect from my boss so she'll listen to me when it comes to matters that concerns her
24. Realising my parents wont ever believe me when i say im pretty close to innocent when it comes to drugs
25. Live Loud Bands!
26. itunes that plays constantly the songs that make me happy
27. knowing that in four weeks it will all be over
28. knowing that i'll be 18 soon
29. convincing Greg to move to the city with me next year
30. After losing loves and gaining interests and being screwed around endlessly, realising that im still me, im still okay