Speak up

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I don't even know how to begin this.
My back hurts and I'm frustrated.
I'm just hoping I can sleep tonight and not lay in bed for hours before I fall asleep.
I'm thinking so much, sometimes I daze off and go blank.
So I try to think of something that I would like.
My macro lens comes in on Monday. :)
So I think of what I'll use it on.
That distracts me... for a little bit.
I guess I just feel tired of being so nice.
I think it's time for me to speak up.
I can't just stay shut and allow others to think otherwise.
It's not fair.
So maybe that's why I'm so frustrated.
Because I've spoken the truth.
But I can't get any feedback.
I want to talk some more.
I need to speak up more in general.
I can't just always be thinking of the other person.
What about me? What if I hate it? What if I really do like it?
What if I don't want it? What if I don't want to go there? What if I do want to go?
I usually never say what I want because I put the other into consideration too much.
I really need to learn to speak up.
I did today. In a way I feel good about it but at the same time I don't mean to hurt anyone.
I feel... shitty.
Okay, bye.