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[mabdances]

so festie was good fun, got sick tho, icky
good post fest days
then lost it last night
and more so last night
and more so this morning
and i will prob keep losing it

i am confused and scared about life
and about my emotions
and want to put up a wall so high no one can breach it ever because that is my usual response
i am slowly building it up higher
hope you can get in before it is done
im trying to let you
im trying to let a few people in

i dont want to
i dont want to be me
i dont want to be me now

the best thing in the world is to love someone and they love you back
i want that
i want that maybe with you or you or you
or maybe with no one
maybe i cant be with people because i will eventually close off

maybe its work time