Mixed
Tacchon's blonde.
Subaru's cut his hair.
It's like I missed an era of eito already.
I don't even know what to feel about their new dos. Were they hanging around with Yasu too much? jk I'm somewhere in the middle of liking and disliking the change; leaning on either or neither... if that'd make any sense xD
...honestly, lately, my only intention in posting entries is so that I can keep track of where I stopped reading entries from my flist. I'm such a bad friend, I know :( I do try to comment but when I see the huge time gap...
For those who feel the need to cut me out of their flist, feel free to do so. There must be tons of reasons why; I wouldn't wonder if you did nor be bothered... too much xD
Lately I've been thinking seriously of who I really want to be.
Somewhere, deep inside me, I know that the path I'm following, though it could lead to riches, is not my dream. For the past few years, I've been telling myself that it won't work but still stuck to it; I'm climbing just to fall. But I just can't run away, can I? I mean, I thought I could get away with a "sorry" and smile but nooooo. My pride is quite larger than I could've imagined.
People always tell me that I would've been fit to be this and that; to the point that I think they've mentioned every profession there is except the one I'm pursuing
Now, what I feel is... that I need to prove something to the people around me who have been underestimating me. My way is, to prove that something to myself first. I dunno if it's fate that's playing the trick here... but is it wrong to so badly want to become that something you'd hate to be?
What I know is, for now, I'm doing my best; that way I'd have no regrets.
As for hating, I've decided that it's too tiring. (ooh~~ that rhymes so good<333 xD)
I need to stop being immature even if being mature would mean lying to myself. Just this moment. I'd like the fake me to get the real me's life straight because she's making much more sense nowadays. After that, hopefully I'd get to shine with a new light that saves me from being a NEET.
I've gone so far but the goal still seems a bit far. These half-way-through parts always go for confusion so it's best to keep focused. Especially in my situation where I'm gonna graduate ahead of my older brother, I need to finally put my parents at ease about things concerning me and start the real helping off.
I'll need to end what I start, the right way...
3:30am. Not a wink of sleep. Could this be Animal Magic!? xD
With this, I'll be gone for two(?) weeks because I need to get my study groove on.
FINALS! Oh, you finally came. How could time be so fast? Lots of Christmas lights to come too~~
Subaru's cut his hair.
It's like I missed an era of eito already.
I don't even know what to feel about their new dos. Were they hanging around with Yasu too much? jk I'm somewhere in the middle of liking and disliking the change; leaning on either or neither... if that'd make any sense xD
...honestly, lately, my only intention in posting entries is so that I can keep track of where I stopped reading entries from my flist. I'm such a bad friend, I know :( I do try to comment but when I see the huge time gap...
For those who feel the need to cut me out of their flist, feel free to do so. There must be tons of reasons why; I wouldn't wonder if you did nor be bothered... too much xD
Lately I've been thinking seriously of who I really want to be.
Somewhere, deep inside me, I know that the path I'm following, though it could lead to riches, is not my dream. For the past few years, I've been telling myself that it won't work but still stuck to it; I'm climbing just to fall. But I just can't run away, can I? I mean, I thought I could get away with a "sorry" and smile but nooooo. My pride is quite larger than I could've imagined.
People always tell me that I would've been fit to be this and that; to the point that I think they've mentioned every profession there is except the one I'm pursuing
Now, what I feel is... that I need to prove something to the people around me who have been underestimating me. My way is, to prove that something to myself first. I dunno if it's fate that's playing the trick here... but is it wrong to so badly want to become that something you'd hate to be?
What I know is, for now, I'm doing my best; that way I'd have no regrets.
As for hating, I've decided that it's too tiring. (ooh~~ that rhymes so good<333 xD)
I need to stop being immature even if being mature would mean lying to myself. Just this moment. I'd like the fake me to get the real me's life straight because she's making much more sense nowadays. After that, hopefully I'd get to shine with a new light that saves me from being a NEET.
I've gone so far but the goal still seems a bit far. These half-way-through parts always go for confusion so it's best to keep focused. Especially in my situation where I'm gonna graduate ahead of my older brother, I need to finally put my parents at ease about things concerning me and start the real helping off.
I'll need to end what I start, the right way...
3:30am. Not a wink of sleep. Could this be Animal Magic!? xD
With this, I'll be gone for two(?) weeks because I need to get my study groove on.
FINALS! Oh, you finally came. How could time be so fast? Lots of Christmas lights to come too~~