angels
It was really an awful day today. And I just want to write this down, so that I would always remember this day. Of course only those people who I trust and I know I can turn to knows what happened today.
I can't believe that in just one glimpse of an eye, everything would change. My perception, my thinking, the way I live. I mean one minute I was happy, and then boom it happened. It was like a there was a sudden gush of wind that blanketed me from my happiness, my life. I already expected it to happen, but I never considered it at that time. IT WAS SO SUDDEN. I can't think, I can't move, I can't feel, I can't breath. Riding the cab, I was crying, I felt lost, I felt that this was the end.
Ate reg told me that everything is gonna be okay. But I can't help but to wonder... HOW COULD THIS BE OKAY? At that point I wanted to give up. I wanted surrender, I wanted to let the pain go away. I wanted to feel the numbness, so I closed my eyes, and I wanted to let it pass.
I saw angels. Angels by the form of my friends. Apple she's a very very good friend. She probably saved me from my insanity. Eventhough she wasn't physically present, she was the one who pulled me and brought me back. Because of her, I realized that I have a second chance to live and TO LOVE. Words cannot express how grateful I am. Thanks aps :) of course I also wanted to thank my other friends, who encouraged me to cut my class, and who had helped me today. Thank you talaga guys :)
I felt the pain, I have been hurt, but that doesn't mean that I don't have the right to have a second chance to change it. I am stronger than anyone can imagine. Truly living in this world has its madness, but you just have to look up and see a bunch of angels looking down at you, and smiling, and yes because of them there's a reason to smile.