why did we end up like this?
Christmas is finally over, and I can surely say that this was one of the saddest christmas I ever had. Maybe because I spend it far away from home. A place wherein they don't really spend christmas or christmas eve with their families, no noche buenas, no christmas mass, no everything, not like in the Philippines wherein Christmas is like a fiesta, a big celebration. Nothing beats christmas in the Philippines. Oh well at least I got to spend it with my family plus the bonus unlimited shopping.
but what really makes this christmas sad is because of you. You, who got mad at me when I go to Simbang Gabi, because you thought that I was only there because I was seeing someone. Someone I told you that I'm falling in love with. And you even got mad at me when I told you that I'm starting to fall for him. Is it hard for you to realize that we are really over?Can't we be friends? Can't we start a new life? Can't we fall in love with someone else? And now I've come to realized I don't want our friendship to end, but if you restrict me to do things that I really want to do. Then maybe we should stop being friends. If this means that I have to sacrifice our friendship just to do things, just to see my friends, just to fall in love again, then maybe I'll sacrifice it. During the days that I have stopped going to simbang gabi, I realized that I have sacrifice the time that I could spend with my friends, those people who never expected me to do something, and to be someone else, those people who loves me no matter who I am. And that I forever will regret. I never expected us to be like this. I never expected ths to happen. I don't know what will happen when I go back there. What will I say to you. I'm still confuse. I don't think that all of my feelings for you are all gone. But I don't know.
There is only one thing that I'm sure of, and that is I'm falling for him.
merry christmas....