Fic(let): Knowing (PG) (Emma-centric; Emma/Will)
Title: Knowing
Author: ma_raven
Characters: Emma Pillsbury
Rating: PG
Words: 400-ish
Spoilers: Pilot
Author's Note: This is an idea that's been niggling at the back of my mind since I first saw the Pilot, and I finally managed to sit down and just get it out onto 'paper.' Go me! I'm also posting this from the waiting lounge of the NIH Vaccine Research Centre, so transcribed the whole thing just so I could post it now instead of in 4 hours.
Summary: She knows it's not healthy, her interest in Will.
She knows it's not healthy, her interest in Will.
She does.
Just like she knows that her sanitary standards are the exception and not the rule, and even if she can justify it and legitimize it, she knows that's not quite healthy, either. That doesn't mean she can help it, or that it's necessarily a bad thing, so long as she keeps an eye on it.
Because she knows that he's married, and she knows that he's the kind of guy who doesn't just walk away from his commitments - even if he wants to. Even if it might be better for him to do so. It's one of the reasons she pays attention to him (that, and he's really the only attractive male her age on staff worth even a pipe dream. Johnson in the math department is cute, but very gay. Everyone else has at least ten years on her (if she's feeling generous), or stares at her like she's some kind of cheap entertainment, just waiting for the moment when she has a nervous breakdown in the front office so they can say that they knew it all along). Will's a genuinely good guy, and she's not going to do anything to change that. From what she's heard, his wife doesn't deserve him - doesn't understand him like she does.
Emma knows that sounds a little creepy, but that isn't the way she means it. She has no illusions about her role in Will's life. Daydreams, yes, but no illusions.
Girls like her end up with men like Ken Tanaka, or they end up spinsters; in real life, the Prince Charmings are taken (or gay. Way too many of them are gay, which is just a whole other level of depressing. There are days when she feels like she's accidentally flirted with all of them at one point or another, never mind that Lima's far too big for her to have done any such thing), and she is no Cinderella (her fantastic shoe collection is merely coincidental).
Emma knows all of this, but that doesn't mean she stops hoping. It's like so many other things in her life - she knows it's not healthy, but that doesn't mean she can stop.
~ Finis ~
Author: ma_raven
Characters: Emma Pillsbury
Rating: PG
Words: 400-ish
Spoilers: Pilot
Author's Note: This is an idea that's been niggling at the back of my mind since I first saw the Pilot, and I finally managed to sit down and just get it out onto 'paper.' Go me! I'm also posting this from the waiting lounge of the NIH Vaccine Research Centre, so transcribed the whole thing just so I could post it now instead of in 4 hours.
Summary: She knows it's not healthy, her interest in Will.
She knows it's not healthy, her interest in Will.
She does.
Just like she knows that her sanitary standards are the exception and not the rule, and even if she can justify it and legitimize it, she knows that's not quite healthy, either. That doesn't mean she can help it, or that it's necessarily a bad thing, so long as she keeps an eye on it.
Because she knows that he's married, and she knows that he's the kind of guy who doesn't just walk away from his commitments - even if he wants to. Even if it might be better for him to do so. It's one of the reasons she pays attention to him (that, and he's really the only attractive male her age on staff worth even a pipe dream. Johnson in the math department is cute, but very gay. Everyone else has at least ten years on her (if she's feeling generous), or stares at her like she's some kind of cheap entertainment, just waiting for the moment when she has a nervous breakdown in the front office so they can say that they knew it all along). Will's a genuinely good guy, and she's not going to do anything to change that. From what she's heard, his wife doesn't deserve him - doesn't understand him like she does.
Emma knows that sounds a little creepy, but that isn't the way she means it. She has no illusions about her role in Will's life. Daydreams, yes, but no illusions.
Girls like her end up with men like Ken Tanaka, or they end up spinsters; in real life, the Prince Charmings are taken (or gay. Way too many of them are gay, which is just a whole other level of depressing. There are days when she feels like she's accidentally flirted with all of them at one point or another, never mind that Lima's far too big for her to have done any such thing), and she is no Cinderella (her fantastic shoe collection is merely coincidental).
Emma knows all of this, but that doesn't mean she stops hoping. It's like so many other things in her life - she knows it's not healthy, but that doesn't mean she can stop.
~ Finis ~