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im so dead and hurt...i know a lot of people are probably happy that i
am but that isnt what i care about because i know everyone has lost
something they care about...whether its a friend, family, pet, object
anything i know everyone has...and i know you wish you could take
something back that you've done, especially when you fight and you say
things you shouldnt or you just loose it and dont care words come out
of your mouth spewing like fountains and your eyes ignite in flames you
see hell and you live it at that moment and nothing can stop you...your
mind is paralyzed and numb and you dont feel anything whether your hurt
or mad...
im hurt i feel like im dieing i want to break out of my body i want
everyone to just understand...
what do you do if you love something more then life you love something so much and you would do anything to get it back...you would fight the devil himself and wrestle with angels...you would steal cupids arrows and shoot him so he would know what a broken heart is like...its like you've journied for years and years and gotten closer and closer to the treasure...you can smell it taste it...you can picture it in your head you see it...you get to the place where the treasure is kept..you put your hands on it... a red heart shaped ruby perfectly shaped by the earth itself...you feel the power the happieness in your hands...you have unlocked the key to love the only thing that can make what you lost better make you happy again...your thrilled...but no one can just get love they cant just give it eather...you put it to your chest to claim the victory and right there it turns to ash and blows away...your hopes and your dreams are gone...you have lost the most valuable thing to you...what you have worked for so hard and held on to so tight...you grit your teeth and pulled through just to get to the top of the mountain inside the temple in the heat and snow, sand and ice, you have done it all to find this cure you had it and felt how great it was and then your heart breaks and dissapears never to be found...how would you feel? that is how i feel...i have lost the most important thing, the one thing that i have been looking for for years and now its gone...do words express this feeling of pain and sorrow? no but you can only imagine what it is...i wish i could show you but you cant show what doesnt leave a mark, what doesnt have a place, a figure, a name, you can only see it in your own mind and heart, because everyone else has a different perspective...all you want is to get back what youve lost and never let go...
what do you do if you love something more then life you love something so much and you would do anything to get it back...you would fight the devil himself and wrestle with angels...you would steal cupids arrows and shoot him so he would know what a broken heart is like...its like you've journied for years and years and gotten closer and closer to the treasure...you can smell it taste it...you can picture it in your head you see it...you get to the place where the treasure is kept..you put your hands on it... a red heart shaped ruby perfectly shaped by the earth itself...you feel the power the happieness in your hands...you have unlocked the key to love the only thing that can make what you lost better make you happy again...your thrilled...but no one can just get love they cant just give it eather...you put it to your chest to claim the victory and right there it turns to ash and blows away...your hopes and your dreams are gone...you have lost the most valuable thing to you...what you have worked for so hard and held on to so tight...you grit your teeth and pulled through just to get to the top of the mountain inside the temple in the heat and snow, sand and ice, you have done it all to find this cure you had it and felt how great it was and then your heart breaks and dissapears never to be found...how would you feel? that is how i feel...i have lost the most important thing, the one thing that i have been looking for for years and now its gone...do words express this feeling of pain and sorrow? no but you can only imagine what it is...i wish i could show you but you cant show what doesnt leave a mark, what doesnt have a place, a figure, a name, you can only see it in your own mind and heart, because everyone else has a different perspective...all you want is to get back what youve lost and never let go...