I have my moments, one right after the other

[m_t_eyes]

The house is getting painted today, finally I'll feel like I have a home (sorta). The mattress I was supposed to have was awful and had to be thrown away. I'm going to find a new one today. Besides that page in my book, I have a fucking thesaurus of shit going on, reiterating my views over and over again. I'm taking it really hard, and sometimes I feel liberated, but most of the time I just feel dejected.
I have hopes, yet if everything turned out the way I wanted I know I would always have doubts because of this whole expedition.

well, one painfully slow day at a time I guess.
cheers.