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It's been a very terribly long few days. Last week Freddie got a call from home; he was cleared to play again. I was devestated, not that he got play, never that. But we'd prepared ourselves to the fact that he wouldn't play and all of a sudden, he playing.
I'm so damn sick and tired of saying goodbye to him. I tried to be strong for him; I didn't do very well. I did get a chance to give him his birthday present. I think he was surprised I knew. O course I was going to know that. In the end though, I let him go, watched him walk out of the house. Gone again.
Though I am glad he's getting to play. I am so damn proud of him. He's done so great so far. It makes me feel good. I'm trying to stay busy, putting all my energy into practicing and playing.
The one good thing about the media following him again is that I'll be able to keep up on what he's doing, even though we try and talk every day. Though, it's not the same as him being here. We have time off soon, I'm going to try and get to Sweden to see him. Yeah it's true, I miss my boyfriend.
I'm so damn sick and tired of saying goodbye to him. I tried to be strong for him; I didn't do very well. I did get a chance to give him his birthday present. I think he was surprised I knew. O course I was going to know that. In the end though, I let him go, watched him walk out of the house. Gone again.
Though I am glad he's getting to play. I am so damn proud of him. He's done so great so far. It makes me feel good. I'm trying to stay busy, putting all my energy into practicing and playing.
The one good thing about the media following him again is that I'll be able to keep up on what he's doing, even though we try and talk every day. Though, it's not the same as him being here. We have time off soon, I'm going to try and get to Sweden to see him. Yeah it's true, I miss my boyfriend.