sooo...i'm not so good at these things...
so i'm not the best at keeping a journal. i never have, i may never be. its interesting though, when i actually go back and read what i've written i learn so much. maybe its that fear of greater self realization that keeps me from recording my thoughts. or maybe i'm just lazy.
so reading "days of war, nights of love" today and i come across the following:
"you know what everyone's greatest fear is? it is that all the dreams we have, all the crazy ideas and aspirations, all te impossible romantic longings and utopian visions can come true, that the world can grant our wishes. hpeople spend their lives doing everything in their power to fend off that possibility: they beat themselves up with every kind of insecurity, sabotage their own efforts, undermine love affair sand cry sour grapes before the world even has a chance to defeat them...because no weight could be heavier to bear that the possibility that everything we want is possible. if that is true, then there really are things at stake in this life, things to be truly won or lost. nothing could be more heartbreaking than to fail when such success is actually possible, so we do everything we can to avoid trying in the first place, to avoid having to try."
such is my life...so are my fears. its so much easier to fail when you don't really want it.
so reading "days of war, nights of love" today and i come across the following:
"you know what everyone's greatest fear is? it is that all the dreams we have, all the crazy ideas and aspirations, all te impossible romantic longings and utopian visions can come true, that the world can grant our wishes. hpeople spend their lives doing everything in their power to fend off that possibility: they beat themselves up with every kind of insecurity, sabotage their own efforts, undermine love affair sand cry sour grapes before the world even has a chance to defeat them...because no weight could be heavier to bear that the possibility that everything we want is possible. if that is true, then there really are things at stake in this life, things to be truly won or lost. nothing could be more heartbreaking than to fail when such success is actually possible, so we do everything we can to avoid trying in the first place, to avoid having to try."
such is my life...so are my fears. its so much easier to fail when you don't really want it.