sunday afternoon
i am feeling very unmotivated. well, that's not exactly right. i'm feeling more incapable. which is stupid. overwhelmed is an even better word to describe how i feel. i have a lot to do before school gets out and i don't feel like i can get it all done, but by the time school gets out it will be too late to do it all. does that make sense? hmm. i definitely am so ready to be living out on my own. i dont know how i'm going to stand it this summer being home still. oh well, i'll enjoy it. you know what i really don't want to speak at bacculaureate!!! well actually i just don't want to fix what i'm saying that's due today haha. and i want to be tan. but i refuse to go to a tanning bed. and i won't lay out because it's boring. what's a girl to do? be white i guess. or give in and go to a tanning bed once i get a job and some money. i don't wanna be here and i don't want a job. i just wanna chill at the beach all summer long. fat chance of that. ohh, well. peace out.