today
was one of those days where everything went wrong. but it doesn't matter. God made it , so it's good. and i'm thankful to be alive and breathing with a new morning awaiting me tomorrow (God-willing). and i don't say that easily, believe me. i wish i lived it all the time. no, i mess up so much. what i think is the most ironic is when my mom tried to ask me what was wrong and i snapped at her. snapped at her because she cares about me. good job mar. haha. oh well. i talked to her later this afternoon.
you know what, my psych project isn't going too well. haha. i think not doing track was a not-good idea. i'm going back on monday. maybe even tomorrow. but probably not tomorrow. see, i keep forgetting to do the relaxing exercises. because i'm so hungry before a meal that i just want to eat! haha. i did take a hot hot hot bath last night after i did my yoga after i ate dinner after i went on my 45-minute walk in the cold outside... but i still oculdn't sleep!!! so i ate chocolate. caffeine and sugar and fat--good choice, marissa. so yeah i was really tired this morning. ummm and this afternoon i confess i ate 2 poptarts :( poptarts are well yeah they are junk food. i wasn't even hungry. i could say i had such a bad day as an excuse...haha. well i am not perfect. it's just weird cause i am not hungry for much breakfast, and sometimes i'm not hungry for much lunch, and then all of a sudden at 5:00 in the afternoon i'm starving and want to eat so much. and then before bed i get hungry again. i think my internal clock is just set like 5 hours faster than normal peoples'. like if i got up at 11 and went to bed at like 2 am, i'd be fine. be hungry at just the right times. haha. hmmm any suggestions... what should i do? i need to start drinking milk before bed every night. i think i did that one night and it worked. haha my project is a failure so far.
i'm going to go make some modifications i think!
you know what, my psych project isn't going too well. haha. i think not doing track was a not-good idea. i'm going back on monday. maybe even tomorrow. but probably not tomorrow. see, i keep forgetting to do the relaxing exercises. because i'm so hungry before a meal that i just want to eat! haha. i did take a hot hot hot bath last night after i did my yoga after i ate dinner after i went on my 45-minute walk in the cold outside... but i still oculdn't sleep!!! so i ate chocolate. caffeine and sugar and fat--good choice, marissa. so yeah i was really tired this morning. ummm and this afternoon i confess i ate 2 poptarts :( poptarts are well yeah they are junk food. i wasn't even hungry. i could say i had such a bad day as an excuse...haha. well i am not perfect. it's just weird cause i am not hungry for much breakfast, and sometimes i'm not hungry for much lunch, and then all of a sudden at 5:00 in the afternoon i'm starving and want to eat so much. and then before bed i get hungry again. i think my internal clock is just set like 5 hours faster than normal peoples'. like if i got up at 11 and went to bed at like 2 am, i'd be fine. be hungry at just the right times. haha. hmmm any suggestions... what should i do? i need to start drinking milk before bed every night. i think i did that one night and it worked. haha my project is a failure so far.
i'm going to go make some modifications i think!